Fight song

You came like a thief in the night. In a blink of an eye, you stole all my possessions, my fight, my strength, and my control. You left me with sorrow, stress, pain, low self-esteem, and self-pity. When the clouds dissipated the next day, I heard a voice it said to me: smile, shout, and rejoice for what has been stolen will be replaced ten times over. You are never alone if you walk with me.

Shake off that old skin and show them how relentless you are. Show them through your actions; your spirit will not be broken, no matter how hard they try.

©Painbug 2021

Someday!!!

Someday we’ll see our loved ones who passed away again.

Someday all sickness, pain, and sorrow will be gone.

Someday war will be no more.

Someday we will smile, laugh, and have happiness again.

Someday we will be surrounded with love, joy, and peacefulness.

Someday we will have a blessed and rich life.

Someday only Jehovah’s will for the earth will be done.

Only God’s kingdom will rule on earth. 

I look forward to someday living in paradise on earth forever.

Matthew 6:9-13

©Painbug 2021

Selfless/Careless

Well, here we are two weeks, left in this year. As of today, the United States lost 309,859 lives to a hidden killer. This killer is relentless, blind, and deaf.

 Coronavirus has no filter or preference.

She shows up like a thief in the night. She leaves a trail of lives behind.

She tackles you like a defensive football player.

She is unpredictable.

They say one way to protect yourself from her is wearing a mask, social distancing, and hand washing.

I ask how can we protect ourselves from others when people refuse to acknowledge COVID-19 exist?

I wear two masks, one to protect you from me and another to protect me from you.

I stand 8 feet back to protect the space between us.

I wear gloves and use hand sanitizer to kill the germs before it attacks you.

I stay away from people to keep my germs from harming anyone else.

You refuse to wear a mask.

You do not respect the social distance rule.

You do not hesitate to spread your germs around.

I think about you, but you could care less about me.

Why can’t we meet halfway to protect each other?

©Painbug 2020

Helpless…

Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
©Painbug 2020

Patience is a Virtual!!!!

Being patient sounds like an easy thing to do right?

I yearn to travel again. I want to eat out in restaurants.

I want to gather with people other than the ones in my household. I want to enjoy my many adventures. I want to be able to see the world again.

For now, I must stay put in my bubble.

The last ten months have been extremely hard for me. I feel as if I am on an extended punishment. I have seen other people traveling and enjoying life. I see the pictures on social media, and it just saddens me. I start to think it is time and safe to travel again. I begin to start the process of picking somewhere to go until I heard a voice in my head.

It told me to be patient a little while longer. When the time is right, you will know. You know what the risks are. Are you willing to jeopardize yourself and others for enjoyment?

Being patient is a difficult task to accomplish. It tends to impact your thinking when you see things appear differently than they are.

Lately, this word patience has been flowing around a lot. These last month’s People were asked to have patience during the election count. People were asked to have the patience for a vaccine. People were asked to have patience while the scientist tries to figure out what this virus is. Most importantly, people were asked to have patience while they figure out how to navigate the school system.

2020 has brought out all the tricks. We all must learn how to adjust to the current situation at hand. I am the first one to admit my world has been turned upside down because of this virus mentally and physically. It took me a while to realize the severity of this virus. When you start losing people around you, it hits home. We had a few COVID-19 scares. I realized I need to look out for myself and others. The last thing I want on my conscience is I got someone sick, and they died.

Patience is the ability to wait calmly for a situation to change. Whether we are looking forward to the end of an unpleasant condition or the fulfillment of a long-awaited desire, we need patience.

©Painbug 2020

You are my……

I depend on you

You are my rock.

You are my guiding light when my world is dark.

You are my warmth when it is cold.

You are the voice I hear when I am making decisions.

When I am lost, you are the one who finds me.

When I am scare, you are the one who comforts me.

         Isiah 41:10

You are my heavenly father who gave his only beloved precious son, to give a sinner like me a chance at life, peace, and happiness in your kingdom.

       Matthew 6:10

©Painbug 2020

This is for all men and women!!!👀👀👁👁

When you start to see gray hair, please don’t rush to color your gray. We shouldn’t be ashamed of gray but embrace, love and, treasure your gray hair. 

Proverbs 16.31

Regardless of all the negativity in the world today, enjoy the simple things of life.

Before you were able to travel the world, you enjoyed time with your family locally. 

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Before you were able to go out to eat at these lovely restaurants, you would spend time cooking at home with your family.

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Before Technology became popular, you spent time writing letters and made phone calls.

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Before game systems hit the mainstream, you played board games with the family.

Let’s get back to the basics and enjoy the simple things of life.

The world has gone mad. You can remain calm and peaceful if you let God into your life.

Galatians 5:22, Roman 14:17

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©Painbug 2020

Do you really know me???🧐🧐🧐🤔

To know me is to love me unconditionally.
To love me unconditionally; is to accept all my imperfections, my weird mind, my different personalities, my mood swings, my mental illness, and my physical disabilities without judgment.
To know me is to be close to me and be able to share our opinions openly.
To know me is to be that person who will check me when I am wrong, but won’t hold it against me.
To know me is to understand I am trying to find myself spiritually and won’t participate in certain things, but you are still cool with that.
To know me is to know when we have a problem with each other we can talk it out.
To know me is to know when I tell you I love you; I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
To know me is to know when I am mad I will talk crap and then drop it.
To know me is to know I do not hold grudges, anger, or bitterness in my heart.
To know me is to know I am a person who is very selective of the company I keep.
©Painbug 2020

Me, Myself and I….👩🏽😮🙃‼‼‼

I can love you with every ounce in my body and kill every ounce of myself.

I can praise you with beautiful words and destroy myself with one word.

I can help shape you into the person you should become at the same time I can crush the person I am.

I can support you in every way and abandon myself.

I can be your fan and my worst critic. 

I will not allow anyone to hurt you but will turn around and destroy every inch of myself.

I can love myself more while you quietly fade away.

I can learn to put me first and place you in the background.

I can be the loudest person in the room while shutting you down.

I can excel and thrive while you fall and fail.

I can be myself, and at the same time, I can allow you to show up and show out.

I can be many shades in the dark and in the light. I can fulfill many roles; it just depends on the day and mood.

I can learn to accept the things I can not change and let go of the things I can.

I am comfortable in my skin. I am a work in progress!!!!

©Painbug 2020

Color of my skin

Because of the color of my skin, you say my life doesn’t matter.

Because of the color of my skin, you avoid talking to me face to face.

Because of the color of my skin, you can’t see me.

Because of the color of my skin, you say I am not entitled to anything.

Because of the color of my skin, you treat me like dirt.

Because of the color of my skin, you think I am not intelligent.

Because of the color of my skin, you think I ‘m uneducated.

Because of the color of my skin, you belittle, berate, discriminate, hate, and want to break me.

Because of the color of my skin, you want to kill me.

Because of the color of my skin, you wish my kind would disappear from the earth.

Because of the color of my skin, I will rise.

Because of the color of my skin, I will shout from the highest mountain.

My life does matter, and you will never break me.

I am stronger and wiser.

I am beautiful and free.

I am worthy of life.

I am intelligent and educated.

I will no longer be chained and silence.

Because of the color of my skin, you seem to have forgotten

We all come from dirt.

We all bleed the same color blood.

We all have the same internal body parts.

We all will return to dirt once we die.

You are my brothers and sisters regardless of the color of my skin.

God created all of us.

We all are his children.

We all are the same, just different skin shades.

The next time we cross paths, you will know who I am because of the color of my skin.

P.S my brothers and sisters never believe you are weak, worthless, not love, or wanted.

Our heavenly father created each of us to be Priceless.

© Pain Bug 2020