I always had high hopes for my life. Regardless, of what other people thought.
I couldn’t CONFORM to what other people wanted me to do.
God made me unique and special with all my imperfections.
I am a strong, open-minded, opinionated, confident, independent woman.
I am comfortable In my skin.
I do have bad moments, days, and months.
It’s just different shades of me.
I love all of me the good, the bad, and the nasty.
We all have different shades of ourselves, whether we acknowledge it or not.
All I can do is be me.
“Shout out to the old me, and everything you showed me. Glad you didn’t listen when the world was trying to slow me. No one could control me. I had to mess it up before I really got to know me(5 seconds of Summer)”.
I was so precious. I was unique and beautiful. I was innocent and pure. I was gullible and vulnerable. I was violated.
I was a child.
I was so alone. I was so confused and lost. I was scared.
I was robbed of my childhood.
You berated and belittle me constantly. You beat me and you neglected me. You abandoned me and left me to defend myself.
Most of all you hated me.
I looked to you for protection. I looked to you for help. I looked for you to save me.
I look for you to love me.
You gave me away like a piece of candy. You threw me to the wolves. You made me disappear. You remove the thought of me from your memory.
You killed me.
The new me surfaced and the old me was me cremated. The new me started achieving everything the old me was denied. The new me is stronger and tougher. The new me is bold and fierce. The new me is a warrior. The new me doesn’t look or yearn for you anymore. The new me shields my heart from you.
The new me forgives you for all the wrong you have done to me.
As I write this, I shed tears down my face. I cried not because of the pain, sorrow, shame, or the feeling of being let down by you.
I shed tears because I am happy.
Jehovah has blessed me with love and life 1 John 4:19. He shields me with faith, hope, and love. He feeds my soul Matthew 5:3