My Friday was like every other day the last six weeks. What can I do today? I recently started some new projects to occupy my mind during the day. I went back to making crafts. I really enjoy arts and Crafts when I was younger. Life has a way of taking your attention off of things you liked. Since 2020, I have been tuning into a part of me which was buried. I have reunited with one of my old personalities. She has been quietly tuck away in the back. She resurfaced when life slowed me down. I always knew there were different personalities being displayed in different periods of my life.
This person is more lay back, loving, eager, spiritual, and just don’t care about what people think or have to say about her. I guess she shields me from this world and its craziness. She also rely on God and his son the Christ Jesus for spiritual love and hope.
She doesn’t mind being in her own world, because it’s quite and peaceful. She is the peace maker between us. She is very slow to anger and quick to act. She believes actions speak louder than words. She accepts things for what they really are, and learns how to maneuver around them. She also believes we all need to enjoy the little things in life.
I have been told I am not longer disable and can get a job. Well, I have been in this condition for the years two going on three years now. My life has been turned upside down, sides ways and broken. The last time I tried to work was two years and even then it was so hard with reducing hours and tasks still wasn’t working. I started this site over a year ago and to this day I can’t keep up with it. This issue/ problem has been inferring with the simplest things in life. My mental is all haywires and it has been physically a living nightmare. I was forced to restructure my life. Since March of 2016 life as I have known it was over and a new one was forced on me. My education and experience have become useless in this new way of living.
My day depends on how much pain I am dealing with to function. Been told numerous times there isn’t any cure nor any medicines that would help relieve the pain I have to endure. To be able to complete a task is a fight in itself. Not to mention the mental issues I acquire without permission. My body lets me know right away if wants what kind of day it’s going to be. The sad thing is the pain doesn’t have a time frame for when it starts.