Selfless/Careless

Well, here we are two weeks, left in this year. As of today, the United States lost 309,859 lives to a hidden killer. This killer is relentless, blind, and deaf.

 Coronavirus has no filter or preference.

She shows up like a thief in the night. She leaves a trail of lives behind.

She tackles you like a defensive football player.

She is unpredictable.

They say one way to protect yourself from her is wearing a mask, social distancing, and hand washing.

I ask how can we protect ourselves from others when people refuse to acknowledge COVID-19 exist?

I wear two masks, one to protect you from me and another to protect me from you.

I stand 8 feet back to protect the space between us.

I wear gloves and use hand sanitizer to kill the germs before it attacks you.

I stay away from people to keep my germs from harming anyone else.

You refuse to wear a mask.

You do not respect the social distance rule.

You do not hesitate to spread your germs around.

I think about you, but you could care less about me.

Why can’t we meet halfway to protect each other?

©Painbug 2020

Things I thought about in 2020

It feels like the exciting side of me has left.
Why?
It feels like I am in this world alone at times.
Why?
I feel like I am an outcast no-one likes me, loves me, or cares about me.
Why?
Why is this world so dark?
I have more questions than answers.
2020 has triggered a lot of emotional, physical, and mental challenges for everyone.
For the first time, people had to face these things head-on and alone.
We had to adjust to a new living style for the safety of ourselves and others.
For the first time, we not only responsible for ourselves but others as well.
For the first time, you have to think for yourself.
Some questions only you can answer.
There are services out there that can help you answer your questions. However, will you be willing to accept the advice?
©Painbug 2020

You are my……

I depend on you

You are my rock.

You are my guiding light when my world is dark.

You are my warmth when it is cold.

You are the voice I hear when I am making decisions.

When I am lost, you are the one who finds me.

When I am scare, you are the one who comforts me.

         Isiah 41:10

You are my heavenly father who gave his only beloved precious son, to give a sinner like me a chance at life, peace, and happiness in your kingdom.

       Matthew 6:10

©Painbug 2020

Strength‼‼‼‼‼©

Strength comes from someone invisible.

Strength comes from other people.

Strength comes from deep within yourself.

This incredible strength comes from God.

Strength is when you are at peace with Jehovah, yourself, and others.

Strength comes from acknowledging and accepting the wrong you have done to yourself and others.

Strength comes from forgiving and loving the people who have done you wrong.

Strength comes from loving people who hate you.

Strength is taking someone’s hurtful words and turning them into ashes.

Strength comes from dealing with pain and mental health issues that want to break you, but you don’t allow it.

Strength is fighting head-on with or without assistance.

Strength is knowing regardless of what this world throws at you:

You are loved.

You are kind.

You are smart.

You are beautiful/handsome.

You are wonderful

You are a child of God!!!!

Strength comes from Perseverance.

Always remember your strength comes from God. Anytime you start to feel like you don’t have the strength; All you need to do is just pray and leave it in God’s hands. ©Painbug 2020

Self- Love💕😘💖

Self-love is a feeling only the individual can experience.

Can you Image you have a bag full of coins? This bag consists of dimes, nickels, quarters, pennies, and dollar coins. The bag is full of change. However, you notice there are only a few dollar coins in this bag.  You start feeling a little disappointed. You begin to ask yourself, what can I do to obtain more dollar coins?

After a couple of days pass, you start to appreciate the coins you have collected. It doesn’t matter if you have a few dollar coins or a lot. What matters is any change you have collected thus far is valuable money.

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Self-love is like coins. You have one quality you focus on the most. One day something happens, and you must change your focus and appreciate everything about yourself. You begin to love yourself. Everything from the good, bad, and ugly makeup who you are now.

Self-love is when you can guard your heart against harsh words and feeling from others.

Self-love is being humble while forgiving and loving your enemy.

Self-love is being at peace with God, yourself, and others.

Self-love is demanding respect while providing the highest level of respect for others.

Self-love is your calm in the storm.

Self-love is being able to put your faith in God when others are determined to be bitter toward you.

Without Self-love, you become lost to the world around you.

We all need to learn how to love ourselves before we can truly love someone else.

I thank God for the life lessons we have to endure.

I will always love him first and foremost.

©Painbug 2020

7-year-old Uzbekistan boy cured of heart ailment at Delhi-based hospital
Photo credit: DNA India

Why I write

I write because I have something to say.
I write because these thoughts are clogging up my brain.
I write because you prefer to read my thoughts then listen to them.
I write because you can read it from the horse’s mouth.
I write because it is my outlet.


I write because some people want me to remain silent.
I write because I can express myself to the world freely.
I write because I can write about my feelings, pain, issues, my sadness, and my joys.


I write Because God provided me with the tools to write.
I write because I appreciate you all reading and following my posts.
I write because I don’t have to hide behind a curtain or limit what I say.
I write because of those hidden feelings in the closet are now able to come out.

I appreciate the lessons and paths I had to endure in life. It helped me to become the person I am now. I will continue to press on.

©Painbug 2020