Why I write

I write because I have something to say.
I write because these thoughts are clogging up my brain.
I write because you prefer to read my thoughts then listen to them.
I write because you can read it from the horse’s mouth.
I write because it is my outlet.


I write because some people want me to remain silent.
I write because I can express myself to the world freely.
I write because I can write about my feelings, pain, issues, my sadness, and my joys.


I write Because God provided me with the tools to write.
I write because I appreciate you all reading and following my posts.
I write because I don’t have to hide behind a curtain or limit what I say.
I write because of those hidden feelings in the closet are now able to come out.

I appreciate the lessons and paths I had to endure in life. It helped me to become the person I am now. I will continue to press on.

©Painbug 2020

Do you really know me???🧐🧐🧐🤔

To know me is to love me unconditionally.
To love me unconditionally; is to accept all my imperfections, my weird mind, my different personalities, my mood swings, my mental illness, and my physical disabilities without judgment.
To know me is to be close to me and be able to share our opinions openly.
To know me is to be that person who will check me when I am wrong, but won’t hold it against me.
To know me is to understand I am trying to find myself spiritually and won’t participate in certain things, but you are still cool with that.
To know me is to know when we have a problem with each other we can talk it out.
To know me is to know when I tell you I love you; I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
To know me is to know when I am mad I will talk crap and then drop it.
To know me is to know I do not hold grudges, anger, or bitterness in my heart.
To know me is to know I am a person who is very selective of the company I keep.
©Painbug 2020

Me, Myself and I….👩🏽😮🙃‼‼‼

I can love you with every ounce in my body and kill every ounce of myself.

I can praise you with beautiful words and destroy myself with one word.

I can help shape you into the person you should become at the same time I can crush the person I am.

I can support you in every way and abandon myself.

I can be your fan and my worst critic. 

I will not allow anyone to hurt you but will turn around and destroy every inch of myself.

I can love myself more while you quietly fade away.

I can learn to put me first and place you in the background.

I can be the loudest person in the room while shutting you down.

I can excel and thrive while you fall and fail.

I can be myself, and at the same time, I can allow you to show up and show out.

I can be many shades in the dark and in the light. I can fulfill many roles; it just depends on the day and mood.

I can learn to accept the things I can not change and let go of the things I can.

I am comfortable in my skin. I am a work in progress!!!!

©Painbug 2020

Faith not Sight

I rely on my faith more these days than ever before. ” Walking by faith, not by sight”(2 Corinthians 5:7). In the present time, we can’t let sight lead us if we allow that to happen it will lead us into a black hole. The things we see are temporary and won’t last forever. I have come to realize things will never be the same or normal. The way we use to live has passed. 

Now we are left with choosing between what is right or politically incorrect. 

Your choices are:

  1. Continue to live your life the way you want with traveling, partying, hanging out with people not wearing a mask, risk getting yourself or someone else sick, or dying.
  2. Change your lifestyle limit traveling, socializing in person, hanging out, or doing things that require close contact with other people to keep yourself and everyone else around you safe.

These two choices have caused many issues with society. By what we can see government, politics, righteous, and unrighteous have influenced the decision an individual makes. Nowadays, They are guiding us in so many different directions. Our government has lost their minds. They are under the impression everyone is blind to the truth. 

It is sad to say we heard these things as a child growing up. Be a leader, not a follower; I can remember this as clear as day. I even instill this same saying onto my children. 

We were given a blessing from God with free will. Each human received the necessary tools needed to make wise decisions.

When you began to walk by faith; You can see the world’s view is different from yours. You can see, smell, and hear all the garage in between the lines. You can’t let what is going on in the world consume your life. You become a slave to sight.

2 Corinthians 4:18

Small Rainbow there is hope

© Painbug 2020

2020 Part 3…..

It is interesting how this world changed in the blink of an eye. 2019 would be the last year things in the world were normal. People didn’t care about issues like racial disparities, police shooting, unexplained deaths, food shortages, and other serious concerns.
Now it is a new year the same issues except there is a twist. People were in virtual home prisons. Some states put in place restrictions that limited people from buying needed essentials for daily living. There were certain days when you were allowed to shop. It is hard to find some items such as Lysol spray, cleaning wipes, gloves, hand sanitizer, tissue,paper towels and disposable face masks. There were shortages of beef, chicken, pork, rice, and flour.
Technology usage became the source of schooling, work duties, and a communication platform. Who knew Zoom would rise for a communication platform for business, and churches.
Every day is a reminder of all the deaths that occurred due to a relentless virus. Some people are more paranoid about being around people and socializing in person because it can pose a risk to our health. Simple things such as traveling, partying, shopping, and even getting your hair is a high risk for contracting the virus.
Mental health disorders are on the extreme all-time high. Isolation has become the new normal. Face masks, gloves, and hand sanitizer are part of our daily wardrobe.
Now we are faced with making tough decisions regarding our children’s education. As a parent, we have to decide if we want to take the risk of sending your child back to school or keep them home. In my state, the numbers are steadily climbing, and the school district can’t provide a plan on how to keep our children safe while at school. Our Governor said “children do not transmit the virus-like adults”. They said it is safe to send children back to school regardless of the risk it poses.
How can we feel comfortable with sending children to school, when there is a controversial discussion going about wearing a mask to protect others. The simple task of wearing a face mask to protect yourself and others seems to be a violation of a person’s right.


COVID-19 has changed the world forever.

2020 is the year the world turned upside down and steadily spiraling downhill.

2020…. Part 2

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We are only halfway through the year 2020.
In the last five months, it seems like an entire year has passed by.
To date, 2020 included events such as fires, floods, earthquakes, mass shootings, massive deaths and, a major pandemic.

In 2020 we have lost more lives then the world trade center attacks, the mass shootings, hurricanes, and tornadoes.

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2020 is the year when technology was the only resource available to communicate with the world.

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2020 is the year we seen politics true colors.

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2020 is the year the President of the United States told us to ingest cleaning solutions to cure the COVID-19 virus(“He said he was being Sarcastic toward the media”).

2020 is the year the United States was represented by COVID-19 case colors on a map.

2020 is the year people started drawing closer, to Jehovah our GOD.

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2020 is the year more people will rely on their faith to cope through this pandemic.

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2020 is the year when I started using my common sense and started following my heart.

© Pain Bug 2020