It feels like the exciting side of me has left.
It feels like I am in this world alone at times.
I feel like I am an outcast no-one likes me, loves me, or cares about me.
Why is this world so dark?
I have more questions than answers.
2020 has triggered a lot of emotional, physical, and mental challenges for everyone.
For the first time, people had to face these things head-on and alone.
We had to adjust to a new living style for the safety of ourselves and others.
For the first time, we not only responsible for ourselves but others as well.
For the first time, you have to think for yourself.
Some questions only you can answer.
There are services out there that can help you answer your questions. However, will you be willing to accept the advice?
Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
I depend on you
You are my rock.
You are my guiding light when my world is dark.
You are my warmth when it is cold.
You are the voice I hear when I am making decisions.
When I am lost, you are the one who finds me.
When I am scare, you are the one who comforts me.
You are my heavenly father who gave his only beloved precious son, to give a sinner like me a chance at life, peace, and happiness in your kingdom.
When you start to see gray hair, please don’t rush to color your gray. We shouldn’t be ashamed of gray but embrace, love and, treasure your gray hair.
Regardless of all the negativity in the world today, enjoy the simple things of life.
Before you were able to travel the world, you enjoyed time with your family locally.
Before you were able to go out to eat at these lovely restaurants, you would spend time cooking at home with your family.
Before Technology became popular, you spent time writing letters and made phone calls.
Before game systems hit the mainstream, you played board games with the family.
Let’s get back to the basics and enjoy the simple things of life.
The world has gone mad. You can remain calm and peaceful if you let God into your life.
Galatians 5:22, Roman 14:17
Strength comes from someone invisible.
Strength comes from other people.
Strength comes from deep within yourself.
This incredible strength comes from God.
Strength is when you are at peace with Jehovah, yourself, and others.
Strength comes from acknowledging and accepting the wrong you have done to yourself and others.
Strength comes from forgiving and loving the people who have done you wrong.
Strength comes from loving people who hate you.
Strength is taking someone’s hurtful words and turning them into ashes.
Strength comes from dealing with pain and mental health issues that want to break you, but you don’t allow it.
Strength is fighting head-on with or without assistance.
Strength is knowing regardless of what this world throws at you:
You are loved.
You are kind.
You are smart.
You are beautiful/handsome.
You are wonderful
You are a child of God!!!!
Strength comes from Perseverance.
Always remember your strength comes from God. Anytime you start to feel like you don’t have the strength; All you need to do is just pray and leave it in God’s hands. ©Painbug 2020
Self-love is a feeling only the individual can experience.
Can you Image you have a bag full of coins? This bag consists of dimes, nickels, quarters, pennies, and dollar coins. The bag is full of change. However, you notice there are only a few dollar coins in this bag. You start feeling a little disappointed. You begin to ask yourself, what can I do to obtain more dollar coins?
After a couple of days pass, you start to appreciate the coins you have collected. It doesn’t matter if you have a few dollar coins or a lot. What matters is any change you have collected thus far is valuable money.
Self-love is like coins. You have one quality you focus on the most. One day something happens, and you must change your focus and appreciate everything about yourself. You begin to love yourself. Everything from the good, bad, and ugly makeup who you are now.
Self-love is when you can guard your heart against harsh words and feeling from others.
Self-love is being humble while forgiving and loving your enemy.
Self-love is being at peace with God, yourself, and others.
Self-love is demanding respect while providing the highest level of respect for others.
Self-love is your calm in the storm.
Self-love is being able to put your faith in God when others are determined to be bitter toward you.
Without Self-love, you become lost to the world around you.
We all need to learn how to love ourselves before we can truly love someone else.
I thank God for the life lessons we have to endure.
I will always love him first and foremost.
It’s been an interesting four months. I have been working non stop for four months straight. I had some days where I just wanted to throw myself out the window. My other personality came out a few times. If she comes out that meant you have reach my limit and she needs to put you in place. There were times when I wanted to tell I them to take this job and shove it so far up their ****.
I met a lot of good people and some off the wall people as well. I worked a number of different projects. Somehow I became the lead supervisor for my area. I greatly appreciate the experience I had.
While working I also was trying to finish my Project Management Course which contsist of three components:
- Certified Associate Project Manager
- Master Project Management
- PMP Microsoft Project 2016 with software
I have to say it was not an easy course. I want to quick a few times because I couldn’t understand some concepts, but with persistent I was able to complete each course with median average of a B+. I really learned a lot and was able to utilize some of the applications at work.
I write because I have something to say.
I write because these thoughts are clogging up my brain.
I write because you prefer to read my thoughts then listen to them.
I write because you can read it from the horse’s mouth.
I write because it is my outlet.
I write because some people want me to remain silent.
I write because I can express myself to the world freely.
I write because I can write about my feelings, pain, issues, my sadness, and my joys.
I write Because God provided me with the tools to write.
I write because I appreciate you all reading and following my posts.
I write because I don’t have to hide behind a curtain or limit what I say.
I write because of those hidden feelings in the closet are now able to come out.
I appreciate the lessons and paths I had to endure in life. It helped me to become the person I am now. I will continue to press on.