Selfless/Careless

Well, here we are two weeks, left in this year. As of today, the United States lost 309,859 lives to a hidden killer. This killer is relentless, blind, and deaf.

 Coronavirus has no filter or preference.

She shows up like a thief in the night. She leaves a trail of lives behind.

She tackles you like a defensive football player.

She is unpredictable.

They say one way to protect yourself from her is wearing a mask, social distancing, and hand washing.

I ask how can we protect ourselves from others when people refuse to acknowledge COVID-19 exist?

I wear two masks, one to protect you from me and another to protect me from you.

I stand 8 feet back to protect the space between us.

I wear gloves and use hand sanitizer to kill the germs before it attacks you.

I stay away from people to keep my germs from harming anyone else.

You refuse to wear a mask.

You do not respect the social distance rule.

You do not hesitate to spread your germs around.

I think about you, but you could care less about me.

Why can’t we meet halfway to protect each other?

©Painbug 2020

Why?

Why is it the hardest thing to do is Agree to Disagree?
We all are entitled to our opinions. God bless us with free will. He allows us to discern between right and wrong. Everyone won’t be on the same page all the time. The least we can do is meet halfway instead of tearing each other down.

We are in the middle of a historic crisis.
People are dying by thousands in waves across the country. COVID-19 virus is affecting people every couple of minutes, according to the reports.

People need to unite and find a solution to fight this pandemic.

The world/country is to focus on rubbish.

©Painbug 2020

Things I thought about in 2020

It feels like the exciting side of me has left.
Why?
It feels like I am in this world alone at times.
Why?
I feel like I am an outcast no-one likes me, loves me, or cares about me.
Why?
Why is this world so dark?
I have more questions than answers.
2020 has triggered a lot of emotional, physical, and mental challenges for everyone.
For the first time, people had to face these things head-on and alone.
We had to adjust to a new living style for the safety of ourselves and others.
For the first time, we not only responsible for ourselves but others as well.
For the first time, you have to think for yourself.
Some questions only you can answer.
There are services out there that can help you answer your questions. However, will you be willing to accept the advice?
©Painbug 2020

Helpless…

Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
©Painbug 2020

Patience is a Virtual!!!!

Being patient sounds like an easy thing to do right?

I yearn to travel again. I want to eat out in restaurants.

I want to gather with people other than the ones in my household. I want to enjoy my many adventures. I want to be able to see the world again.

For now, I must stay put in my bubble.

The last ten months have been extremely hard for me. I feel as if I am on an extended punishment. I have seen other people traveling and enjoying life. I see the pictures on social media, and it just saddens me. I start to think it is time and safe to travel again. I begin to start the process of picking somewhere to go until I heard a voice in my head.

It told me to be patient a little while longer. When the time is right, you will know. You know what the risks are. Are you willing to jeopardize yourself and others for enjoyment?

Being patient is a difficult task to accomplish. It tends to impact your thinking when you see things appear differently than they are.

Lately, this word patience has been flowing around a lot. These last month’s People were asked to have patience during the election count. People were asked to have the patience for a vaccine. People were asked to have patience while the scientist tries to figure out what this virus is. Most importantly, people were asked to have patience while they figure out how to navigate the school system.

2020 has brought out all the tricks. We all must learn how to adjust to the current situation at hand. I am the first one to admit my world has been turned upside down because of this virus mentally and physically. It took me a while to realize the severity of this virus. When you start losing people around you, it hits home. We had a few COVID-19 scares. I realized I need to look out for myself and others. The last thing I want on my conscience is I got someone sick, and they died.

Patience is the ability to wait calmly for a situation to change. Whether we are looking forward to the end of an unpleasant condition or the fulfillment of a long-awaited desire, we need patience.

©Painbug 2020

What the heck?? Part 2 from Another bad day….

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!! Posted November 5

Part 2….

So this doctor diagnosed me wrong, told me the blood work isn’t right and then messed up my medical chart.

I now have Chronic Kidney Disease III according to this doctor. The problem is the Nephrologist who is treating me wasn’t aware of that I had CKD. He had to review all my labs and medical records to see how he missed this important information.

The outcome is I don’t have CKD. One less thing to worry about.