Random Thoughts…….

We all heard the famous line “When life hands you lemons make lemonade

Lemons are a sour/bitter fruit. You must submerge it with sugar and water.

Why would I want to subject my life and time to a sour/bitter fruit of troubles?

Who decide to make this into a famous saying?

Why lemons?

You cannot have lemons alone?

©Painbug 2021

Pain Part 2

Where is the boundary line in this relationship? I gave you my all, in-return you gave me discouragement, sadness, and loneliness. My nights are long and sleepless. My days are dysfunctional and filled with worry. Some days I feel like a visitor in my own body. I began to daydream about the time when this body will not suffer from pain anymore. In this timeframe, I will be divorce from you. You will no longer have control over my body. My days and nights will be full of joy. In this new timeframe, pain and sickness will be no more. Pain, you may have won this battle in this time frame, but God has promised a better life in his Kingdom. Pain listen to me, very clearly Your time is limited! For now, I will rely on my faith to help me endure these trials. ©Painbug 2021

Year 2021 Part 1

It’s a new year with the same old problems from 2020.
People couldn’t wait for the year 2021 to come around. What changes have we seen thus far?
Covid-19 has improved her game and started producing different variants of the virus. The deaths are over 500,000 in the United States alone. We still have high positive cases and deaths.
We have more political drama going on in this country. It is still unreliable and confusing misinformation share by our government officials.
In the first week of January 2021, the country experienced an event we have never seen before.
People are starting to rebel against the government and its preventive measurements. They feel you are intruding on their rights.
Instead of wearing one mask, they ask us to wear two for better protection.
There are vaccines available, but the demand is higher than the supply available. They have begun to lower the age requirements for the vaccines.
Now we are on the verge of another COVID-19 wave across the country.
Will we ever get over this virus?

©Painbug 2021

My Father

Our God is a loving heavenly father who allows us free will to learn about him and his beloved son. John 17:3

 John 17:3.

There are numerous religions available to the world. Some mention our heavenly father God others focus on other Gods and things. Matthew 7:13-15

 Depending on where at in the world you live, you might have the option of choosing which religion you want to study.

 Through the years, I have study different Faiths. I felt inadequate always, searching for something. In the last couple of years, I found what I was missing. Matthew 5:4-6

I finally found my home.  My heart rejoices, my mind is always wanting more, my body feels at peace. When I am dealing with this world system of things, I tend to submerge myself in my faith to cope. 1 Peters 5: 6-11.

©Painbug 2021

Pain… Part 1

I can’t shake this pain inside of me.
It follows me all the time.
This pain has consumed my happiness, my joy, and my life.
This pain forced me into an unwilling, one-sided marriage.
Now I am in a space where it’s just pain and I.
My entire world has been fill with pain.

What can I do to escape this miserable life?

©Painbug 2021

Someday!!!

Someday we’ll see our loved ones who passed away again.

Someday all sickness, pain, and sorrow will be gone.

Someday war will be no more.

Someday we will smile, laugh, and have happiness again.

Someday we will be surrounded with love, joy, and peacefulness.

Someday we will have a blessed and rich life.

Someday only Jehovah’s will for the earth will be done.

Only God’s kingdom will rule on earth. 

I look forward to someday living in paradise on earth forever.

Matthew 6:9-13

©Painbug 2021

Customer service reps

Why is it so hard for people to do the job they are paid to do. If you have a position in customer service and it requires you to assist the person Why are you trying to make the customer do your job.

I have over 20+ years in customer service experience. I know the game card you are playing and will block every attempt to make you do your job.

Be a advocate

Sometimes you must advocate for yourself.  You might have to go against your doctor’s advice/medical opinions to find the appropriate solution.

 I spent this past last year being bounced around from specialist to specialist. They either wanted to offer surgery or some medication.

It’s has been a full year! Full circle right back to where I started this journey. A year of unnecessary pain, confusion, and a lot of unanswered questions.

Now here we go again, the same doctors who passed me off have to deal with me. So many questions. Where do we start? What is the next move?

I have learned some medical professionals will tell you anything in hopes that you will believe them. We know our body. It shows you signs there is something wrong. You must do your research. Be persistent. Do not be afraid to get a second opinion or even a third if needed.

©Painbug 2021

A year to remember…

Here we are at the end of 2020. So much has happened in this past year. 2020 will go down in the history books. There has never been a year like this or will never be again. 

2020 presented the first for a lot of things that happen

  • A deadly killed more people than our history events in the past.
  • A political democracy that has gone crazy and has lost its mind.
  • A virus that made the world stand still for almost a year.
  • For the first time in history, a shortage of tissue, paper towel, gloves, and cleaning supplies like Lysol, Clorox, and wipes.
  •   For the first time in history, people were mandated to wear a facemask indoors and in public.
  • Seniors are not allowed to see their loves one art home due to being vulnerable.

The list can go on and on.

2020 has affected everyone. We all wish we can crumble up 2020 like a piece of paper and throw it away. Unfortunately, the lives lost cannot be reversed. I know it is hard, but we will see them again in a peaceful place.

My 2020 has been a never-ending train wreck.

On a lighter note, I have learned how to sew by hand and on the sewing machine. My cooking is so good. I coach myself into learning how to cook on a grill.

2020 is over.

Hello 2021!!!!!

©Painbug 2021