The last six months presented us with an opportunity to stop and reflect on life thus far. Base on my life reflection, I gain gratitude for the trials and tribulations I went through. The lessons I learned help me to become the person I am now. I don’t take life for granted. I appreciate waking up every day regardless of my pain and mental state. In 2016 I was forced to pause and reset my life. I have been living life to the fullest every day. I started venturing out of my comfort zone. Every couple of months, we would travel across the country. I learned to let go of things I can’t control. I started the process of purging people from my life. I stop listening and caring about what people thought.
Life is too short to be a follower. People need to stop, look, and pay attention to whats going on in their life. Reset and create your path in life.
People are racially divided. Today I was at Costco, and another person went out of her way to talk to me. She saw me walking in the parking lot, and started talking to me. I am a friendly person, so I didn’t mind talking to her. I just happen to look behind me, and a mother and son were walking up. The lady had the nerve to roll her eyes at me and mumble something her son. All I could do was a laugh to myself. I am an individual who thinks for herself. I am a leader, not a follower. I can care less about what other people around me are doing. If you feel some kind of way that’s tough.
I chose to be humble about the situations. The lack of communication from me doesn’t mean I am blind to the issues. I had to endure it since I was born. I want to continue to be the person Jehovah Created to me to be.
We are only halfway through the year 2020. In the last five months, it seems like an entire year has passed by. To date, 2020 included events such as fires, floods, earthquakes, mass shootings, massive deaths and, a major pandemic.
In 2020 we have lost more lives then the world trade center attacks, the mass shootings, hurricanes, and tornadoes.
2020 is the year when technology was the only resource available to communicate with the world.
2020 is the year we seen politics true colors.
2020 is the year the President of the United States told us to ingest cleaning solutions to cure the COVID-19 virus(“He said he was being Sarcastic toward the media”).
2020 is the year the United States was represented by COVID-19 case colors on a map.
2020 is the year people started drawing closer, to Jehovah our GOD.
2020 is the year more people will rely on their faith to cope through this pandemic.
2020 is the year when I started using my common sense and started following my heart.
I was so precious. I was unique and beautiful. I was innocent and pure. I was gullible and vulnerable. I was violated.
I was a child.
I was so alone. I was so confused and lost. I was scared.
I was robbed of my childhood.
You berated and belittle me constantly. You beat me and you neglected me. You abandoned me and left me to defend myself.
Most of all you hated me.
I looked to you for protection. I looked to you for help. I looked for you to save me.
I look for you to love me.
You gave me away like a piece of candy. You threw me to the wolves. You made me disappear. You remove the thought of me from your memory.
You killed me.
The new me surfaced and the old me was me cremated. The new me started achieving everything the old me was denied. The new me is stronger and tougher. The new me is bold and fierce. The new me is a warrior. The new me doesn’t look or yearn for you anymore. The new me shields my heart from you.
The new me forgives you for all the wrong you have done to me.
As I write this, I shed tears down my face. I cried not because of the pain, sorrow, shame, or the feeling of being let down by you.
I shed tears because I am happy.
Jehovah has blessed me with love and life 1 John 4:19. He shields me with faith, hope, and love. He feeds my soul Matthew 5:3
2020Represents plenty of drama, pain, sorrow, anger, misery, grief, and joy.
2020 The year the earth stood still.
2020 Has affected everyone mentally and physically.
2020 Will go down in history as the year we wished never happened.
2020 Is the year we will talk about for decades to come.
The class of 2020 had to endure the pain of being robbed of their spotlight to shine on the stage. Our children had to face the realization of not being able to have physical contact with friends or family outside the home.
We became prisoners in our homes in 2020.
The city that never sleeps (NYC) finally went to sleep. Only stray animals and rats walk the streets. For the first time, the streets are deserted and full for dullness.
The Sunshine State (Florida) beaches have been jilted. The white sand beaches are lonely, and the waves are silent. The sun rises and shine on emptiness.
So much has happened in a short span of time we are still trying to wrap our heads around it.
2020 is the year we found out how truly divided we are.
2020 is the year we faced a pandemic like no other.
A person may think love is a feeling. Love is an emotion that will resonate within people’s hearts. The feeling of being in love will have you doing things never image. As humans, we think we know what love is. We blame love for everything that goes wrong in relationships. We blame love for fighting, bad relationships, or for the crazy things we do in general. We feel once we fall in love it’s hard to let go.
In the present time, we need to love more now than ever. People are losing their family members left and right at an alarmingly rapid rate. We are not allowed to be with them as they take their last breath, nor can we tell them how much we loved them. We are not able to see the people, we can’t touch them, and we can’t show them any love.
We are now relying more on our faith to get us through this rough time.
Through our faith we are starting to learn what the true meaning of love is.
The first love we experienced was from Jehovah 1 John 4:19. In 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous. It does not brag, does not get puffed up, does not behave indecently, does not look for its own interests, does not become provoked. It does not keep account of injury. It does not rejoice over unrighteousness but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes for all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
God has blessed us with life. He created each one of us differently. He has created our beautiful souls after his own heart. He showers us with so much love. It took a pandemic for me to realize this beautiful love Jehovah our GOD has blessed us with.