Helpless…

Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
©Painbug 2020

Patience is a Virtual!!!!

Being patient sounds like an easy thing to do right?

I yearn to travel again. I want to eat out in restaurants.

I want to gather with people other than the ones in my household. I want to enjoy my many adventures. I want to be able to see the world again.

For now, I must stay put in my bubble.

The last ten months have been extremely hard for me. I feel as if I am on an extended punishment. I have seen other people traveling and enjoying life. I see the pictures on social media, and it just saddens me. I start to think it is time and safe to travel again. I begin to start the process of picking somewhere to go until I heard a voice in my head.

It told me to be patient a little while longer. When the time is right, you will know. You know what the risks are. Are you willing to jeopardize yourself and others for enjoyment?

Being patient is a difficult task to accomplish. It tends to impact your thinking when you see things appear differently than they are.

Lately, this word patience has been flowing around a lot. These last month’s People were asked to have patience during the election count. People were asked to have the patience for a vaccine. People were asked to have patience while the scientist tries to figure out what this virus is. Most importantly, people were asked to have patience while they figure out how to navigate the school system.

2020 has brought out all the tricks. We all must learn how to adjust to the current situation at hand. I am the first one to admit my world has been turned upside down because of this virus mentally and physically. It took me a while to realize the severity of this virus. When you start losing people around you, it hits home. We had a few COVID-19 scares. I realized I need to look out for myself and others. The last thing I want on my conscience is I got someone sick, and they died.

Patience is the ability to wait calmly for a situation to change. Whether we are looking forward to the end of an unpleasant condition or the fulfillment of a long-awaited desire, we need patience.

©Painbug 2020

When one door close another one opens

Before COVID-19, my home care business was finally about to get off the ground. I had worked very hard the last two years trying to get all my certifications in place and started applying for state contracts to hit a wall. COVID-19 hit, and everything came down like dominos pieces. I had to dissolve the business. I wasn’t willing to put people at risk for money. It’s been ten months since this door close on me prematurely.
I am an entrepreneur at heart. My eagerness will not allow me to give up. A window opened and then the door. Now it’s time for me to do what I do best to rise. Being patient is not the easiest thing for me to do, but I am learning to wait.

Do not give up when a door closes. Another one will open up have faith and be patient.

Another bad day😣😣😣😢😢

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!!

You are my……

I depend on you

You are my rock.

You are my guiding light when my world is dark.

You are my warmth when it is cold.

You are the voice I hear when I am making decisions.

When I am lost, you are the one who finds me.

When I am scare, you are the one who comforts me.

         Isiah 41:10

You are my heavenly father who gave his only beloved precious son, to give a sinner like me a chance at life, peace, and happiness in your kingdom.

       Matthew 6:10

©Painbug 2020

This is for all men and women!!!👀👀👁👁

When you start to see gray hair, please don’t rush to color your gray. We shouldn’t be ashamed of gray but embrace, love and, treasure your gray hair. 

Proverbs 16.31

Regardless of all the negativity in the world today, enjoy the simple things of life.

Before you were able to travel the world, you enjoyed time with your family locally. 

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Before you were able to go out to eat at these lovely restaurants, you would spend time cooking at home with your family.

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Before Technology became popular, you spent time writing letters and made phone calls.

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Before game systems hit the mainstream, you played board games with the family.

Let’s get back to the basics and enjoy the simple things of life.

The world has gone mad. You can remain calm and peaceful if you let God into your life.

Galatians 5:22, Roman 14:17

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©Painbug 2020

Strength‼‼‼‼‼©

Strength comes from someone invisible.

Strength comes from other people.

Strength comes from deep within yourself.

This incredible strength comes from God.

Strength is when you are at peace with Jehovah, yourself, and others.

Strength comes from acknowledging and accepting the wrong you have done to yourself and others.

Strength comes from forgiving and loving the people who have done you wrong.

Strength comes from loving people who hate you.

Strength is taking someone’s hurtful words and turning them into ashes.

Strength comes from dealing with pain and mental health issues that want to break you, but you don’t allow it.

Strength is fighting head-on with or without assistance.

Strength is knowing regardless of what this world throws at you:

You are loved.

You are kind.

You are smart.

You are beautiful/handsome.

You are wonderful

You are a child of God!!!!

Strength comes from Perseverance.

Always remember your strength comes from God. Anytime you start to feel like you don’t have the strength; All you need to do is just pray and leave it in God’s hands. ©Painbug 2020