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Emotional feeling of “Self-Pity”

Self-pity is a mental struggle. It can be overwhelming to deal with. It’s a feeling you can’t control when it strikes. The flood gates of feelings rush in like an ocean of water during a hurricane. The aim is to destroy everything in its path.
It took a few years for me to realize I was exercising my right to indulge in the self-pity world. One day I realize what was going on in the middle of an episode. Then, I started to ask why I’m punishing myself like this? It was time for a meeting with myself. This conversion was really deep. I started wondering if there was something mentally wrong with me?
Started wondering about the physical and mental pain I was dealing with. I am not the person I use to be before this injury. My life has been dismantled before my eyes. I suffer pain and anxiety attacks daily. Now I suffer from other health issues.
On the other hand, as I started to analyze my situation. Yes, we are broken physically and mentally. Yes, the caliber of my life has changed. Yes, we are miserable at times. Yes, this pain and other health problems are a real pain in the rear to deal with. I asked myself, do I allow this to define who I am or do I want to live life the best way I can?
Whenever self-pity tries to show its ugly head; I quickly shut it down.

Don’t it take over your world

Never Forget too many lives were lost that day..

Here is something I wrote right after 9/11/2001 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Here is something I wrote right after 9/11 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Unfortunately, here it is 18 years later there has been numerous incidence with loss of life at the hands of evil people. May God have mercy for this planet.

By: Painbug©2019

Have you ever felt this way before?

One day you are on top of the world

The next day you’re beneath the earth

One day you have everything going for you

The next day everything was taking from you

One day you have the biggest smile on your face

The next day that biggest smile is a frown

One day you’re the richest person

The next day you’re the most pitiful person alive

One day your family member is there for you

The next day their not around

One day you’re happily married

The next day you are sadly divorce

One day you have the highest hopes

The next day you have lost all hope

What I have learned is you can only take one day at a time

You can only deal with what life hands you one day at a time

All we can do is Make the Best of it one day at a time

Painbug©2019

Why Life?🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

Why is it life always find a way to throw you for a loop? It seems when you finally have figure out things here comes another problem. Problem after problem hill after hill to constantly climb to reach the top. The emotion and physical roller coaster is draining the very life from you. Will the sorrow and the pain ever end? Can I live a happy ever after life like the characters on TV or is it just the way my life is setup?

Life is full of lessons to be learn. We can only take it one day at a time. Today maybe good day and tomorrow could be horrible, the one thing for certain is everyday is a new day with endless possibilities. All we can do is accept the things we can change and let go of the things we can not change.

I am a walking emotion wreck but its my life. I can control my feelings, and some times I can control my emotions. I can’t control the pain ,but I can fight like hell so it won’t take over my life.

My life is a Work In Progress with tape and all

© By Painbug ©2019