Times are changing‼‼🕕

Every day has new issues.
What you did the day before won’t matter the next day.
The world is changing day by day.
People you know are here today and gone tomorrow.
We need to live every day as if it’s our last.
©Painbug 2020

I see the light now

It’s been an interesting four months. I have been working non stop for four months straight. I had some days where I just wanted to throw myself out the window. My other personality came out a few times. If she comes out that meant you have reach my limit and she needs to put you in place. There were times when I wanted to tell I them to take this job and shove it so far up their ****.

I met a lot of good people and some off the wall people as well. I worked a number of different projects. Somehow I became the lead supervisor for my area. I greatly appreciate the experience I had.

While working I also was trying to finish my Project Management Course which contsist of three components:

  1. Certified Associate Project Manager
  2. Master Project Management
  3. PMP Microsoft Project 2016 with software

I have to say it was not an easy course. I want to quick a few times because I couldn’t understand some concepts, but with persistent I was able to complete each course with median average of a B+. I really learned a lot and was able to utilize some of the applications at work.

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Why I write

I write because I have something to say.
I write because these thoughts are clogging up my brain.
I write because you prefer to read my thoughts then listen to them.
I write because you can read it from the horse’s mouth.
I write because it is my outlet.


I write because some people want me to remain silent.
I write because I can express myself to the world freely.
I write because I can write about my feelings, pain, issues, my sadness, and my joys.


I write Because God provided me with the tools to write.
I write because I appreciate you all reading and following my posts.
I write because I don’t have to hide behind a curtain or limit what I say.
I write because of those hidden feelings in the closet are now able to come out.

I appreciate the lessons and paths I had to endure in life. It helped me to become the person I am now. I will continue to press on.

©Painbug 2020

It’s has been a minute so here we go…

1) If you reach out to someone and try to express your feelings, and somehow it goes sideways. You need to ask yourself, is this something you want to explore further or park it and carry on with life?
Learn how to set limits/boundaries/thresholds on what you will tolerate.
Example: If I say you have met my threshold, know that I am putting you on time out for a couple of days or longer. Depending on who you are; It might be a permanent status.


2) If you ask me about voting and I don’t offer my answer or opinion, it’s because I don’t feel like entertaining this conversation.
Example: Hey, so are you voting? Who are you voting for this election? I do not want to talk about this, and we need to change the subject or end the conversation.
Dictate what you are willing to discuss. If you are uncomfortable, then let the person know. If they insist on engaging in this conversation, well walk away.


3) It is ok to laugh at people, but not to their faces.
Example: You may get a call or text message that has you talking to yourself. Just laugh and let it go.

Somethings need to be said

©Painbug 2020

Pain Awareness Month

Pain Awareness Month | Burning Nights CRPS
Photo: Burning Nights

I’ve been dealing with chronic pain for over 15 years now. I am glad this topic is starting to gain light. For some years, physicians would diagnose patients with mental disorders instead of conducting an in-depth investigation of the underline problem.

Me, Myself and I….👩🏽😮🙃‼‼‼

I can love you with every ounce in my body and kill every ounce of myself.

I can praise you with beautiful words and destroy myself with one word.

I can help shape you into the person you should become at the same time I can crush the person I am.

I can support you in every way and abandon myself.

I can be your fan and my worst critic. 

I will not allow anyone to hurt you but will turn around and destroy every inch of myself.

I can love myself more while you quietly fade away.

I can learn to put me first and place you in the background.

I can be the loudest person in the room while shutting you down.

I can excel and thrive while you fall and fail.

I can be myself, and at the same time, I can allow you to show up and show out.

I can be many shades in the dark and in the light. I can fulfill many roles; it just depends on the day and mood.

I can learn to accept the things I can not change and let go of the things I can.

I am comfortable in my skin. I am a work in progress!!!!

©Painbug 2020

Faith not Sight

I rely on my faith more these days than ever before. ” Walking by faith, not by sight”(2 Corinthians 5:7). In the present time, we can’t let sight lead us if we allow that to happen it will lead us into a black hole. The things we see are temporary and won’t last forever. I have come to realize things will never be the same or normal. The way we use to live has passed. 

Now we are left with choosing between what is right or politically incorrect. 

Your choices are:

  1. Continue to live your life the way you want with traveling, partying, hanging out with people not wearing a mask, risk getting yourself or someone else sick, or dying.
  2. Change your lifestyle limit traveling, socializing in person, hanging out, or doing things that require close contact with other people to keep yourself and everyone else around you safe.

These two choices have caused many issues with society. By what we can see government, politics, righteous, and unrighteous have influenced the decision an individual makes. Nowadays, They are guiding us in so many different directions. Our government has lost their minds. They are under the impression everyone is blind to the truth. 

It is sad to say we heard these things as a child growing up. Be a leader, not a follower; I can remember this as clear as day. I even instill this same saying onto my children. 

We were given a blessing from God with free will. Each human received the necessary tools needed to make wise decisions.

When you began to walk by faith; You can see the world’s view is different from yours. You can see, smell, and hear all the garage in between the lines. You can’t let what is going on in the world consume your life. You become a slave to sight.

2 Corinthians 4:18

Small Rainbow there is hope

© Painbug 2020

2020 Part 3…..

It is interesting how this world changed in the blink of an eye. 2019 would be the last year things in the world were normal. People didn’t care about issues like racial disparities, police shooting, unexplained deaths, food shortages, and other serious concerns.
Now it is a new year the same issues except there is a twist. People were in virtual home prisons. Some states put in place restrictions that limited people from buying needed essentials for daily living. There were certain days when you were allowed to shop. It is hard to find some items such as Lysol spray, cleaning wipes, gloves, hand sanitizer, tissue,paper towels and disposable face masks. There were shortages of beef, chicken, pork, rice, and flour.
Technology usage became the source of schooling, work duties, and a communication platform. Who knew Zoom would rise for a communication platform for business, and churches.
Every day is a reminder of all the deaths that occurred due to a relentless virus. Some people are more paranoid about being around people and socializing in person because it can pose a risk to our health. Simple things such as traveling, partying, shopping, and even getting your hair is a high risk for contracting the virus.
Mental health disorders are on the extreme all-time high. Isolation has become the new normal. Face masks, gloves, and hand sanitizer are part of our daily wardrobe.
Now we are faced with making tough decisions regarding our children’s education. As a parent, we have to decide if we want to take the risk of sending your child back to school or keep them home. In my state, the numbers are steadily climbing, and the school district can’t provide a plan on how to keep our children safe while at school. Our Governor said “children do not transmit the virus-like adults”. They said it is safe to send children back to school regardless of the risk it poses.
How can we feel comfortable with sending children to school, when there is a controversial discussion going about wearing a mask to protect others. The simple task of wearing a face mask to protect yourself and others seems to be a violation of a person’s right.


COVID-19 has changed the world forever.

2020 is the year the world turned upside down and steadily spiraling downhill.

It’s been a while….

Hey guys and gals. It’s been a while since my last post. I have been busy, mentally, and physically. I had to stay in the house for a couple of months. I started watching videos on how to learn how to sew. I started a few projects, such as making my hair scarfs and face masks. I have made a few masks by hand. I am excited to learn how to use all the different filters for masks. I did start limited travel through the state for work, but it has run its course.


Took a COVID-19 Antibody test those results; were negative. Now I have to take a COVID-19 test this week to make sure I am still in the clear. I live in one of the Epic centers state. The govern refuse to mandatory the face mask rule. A lot of the local counties took action and in force a face mask mandate law. People have figure out a way around the law. They purchase the fake medical clearance for not wearing a mask. I am sorry if you aren’t able to wear a face mask, please wear a face shield to protect others around you. I started utilizing the early morning shopping hours for seniors, people with disabilities, and immunocompromised. Unfortunately for me, I fall in the last two categorize.


We have too many people walking around with COVID-19 spreading the virus. I never thought I would see the day someone who tested positive for COVID-19 say the virus is fake because they are asymptomatic.

New face mask project

I’ve been busy this month with work, school work, and mask making. I wanted to learn how to make face masks. I spent hours watching YouTube videos on how to sew. I decide to buy a sewing machine to make it easy on myself. Well, that last for only two completed masks. I went ahead and starting sewing mask by hand with the exception poking myself numerous I have gotten better at sewing.