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I was so precious. I was unique and beautiful. I was innocent and pure. I was gullible and vulnerable. I was violated. 

 I was a child.

I was so alone. I was so confused and lost. I was scared. 

 I was robbed of my childhood. 

You berated and belittle me constantly. You beat me and you neglected me. You abandoned me and left me to defend myself. 

Most of all you hated me. 

I looked to you for protection. I looked to you for help. I looked for you to save me.

 I look for you to love me.

 You gave me away like a piece of candy. You threw me to the wolves. You made me disappear. You remove the thought of me from your memory.

 You killed me.

The new me surfaced and the old me was me cremated. The new me started achieving everything the old me was denied. The new me is stronger and tougher. The new me is bold and fierce. The new me is a warrior. The new me doesn’t look or yearn for you anymore. The new me shields my heart from you.

 The new me forgives you for all the wrong you have done to me.

As I write this, I shed tears down my face. I cried not because of the pain, sorrow, shame, or the feeling of being let down by you. 

I shed tears because I am happy

Jehovah has blessed me with love and life 1 John 4:19. He shields me with faith, hope, and love. He feeds my soul Matthew 5:3

©Pain Bug 2020

2020…. Part 1

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2020 Represents plenty of drama, pain, sorrow, anger, misery, grief, and joy.

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2020 The year the earth stood still.

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2020 Has affected everyone mentally and physically.

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2020 Will go down in history as the year we wished never happened.

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2020 Is the year we will talk about for decades to come.

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The class of 2020 had to endure the pain of being robbed of their spotlight to shine on the stage.
Our children had to face the realization of not being able to have physical contact with friends or family outside the home.

We became prisoners in our homes in 2020.

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The city that never sleeps (NYC) finally went to sleep.
Only stray animals and rats walk the streets.
For the first time, the streets are deserted and full for dullness.

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The Sunshine State (Florida) beaches have been jilted.
The white sand beaches are lonely, and the waves are silent. The sun rises and shine on emptiness.

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So much has happened in a short span of time we are still trying to wrap our heads around it.

2020 is the year we found out how truly divided we are.

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2020 is the year we faced a pandemic like no other.

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What is Love?

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A person may think love is a feeling. Love is an emotion that will resonate within people’s hearts. The feeling of being in love will have you doing things never image. As humans, we think we know what love is. We blame love for everything that goes wrong in relationships. We blame love for fighting, bad relationships, or for the crazy things we do in general. We feel once we fall in love it’s hard to let go.

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In the present time, we need to love more now than ever. People are losing their family members left and right at an alarmingly rapid rate. We are not allowed to be with them as they take their last breath, nor can we tell them how much we loved them. We are not able to see the people, we can’t touch them, and we can’t show them any love.

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We are now relying more on our faith to get us through this rough time.

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Through our faith we are starting to learn what the true meaning of love is.

The first love we experienced was from Jehovah 1 John 4:19.
In 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous. It does not brag, does not get puffed up, does not behave indecently, does not look for its own interests, does not become provoked. It does not keep account of injury. It does not rejoice over unrighteousness but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes for all things, endures all things. Love never fails.

God has blessed us with life. He created each one of us differently. He has created our beautiful souls after his own heart. He showers us with so much love. It took a pandemic for me to realize this beautiful love Jehovah our GOD has blessed us with.

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©Pain Bug 2020

Help save a life!!!!

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I wear a mask to protect you. Can you please wear a mask to protect me?

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Let’s stop the spread of COVID-19

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Family……👨‍👩‍👦‍👦👨‍👩‍👧‍👧

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Family, what does this word mean? Everyone has family issues. Everyone has relatives who are close, distant, and fake. We toss the word “Family” around very loosely. Sometimes people who aren’t blood-related become family.

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The family visits are more than occasional BBQ get together. Family is more than a once a year visit from them. It is more than coming together when a family member passed away. Family is more than individuals who want to be bothered only when it is convenient for them. Family is more than making a call or text message because someone else has instructed them to do so. Family is more than the judgmental voice in your ear when times are bad. It is much more than being jealous of a person’s status. A family should not make you feel worthless, isolated, or abandon.

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Families shouldn’t be selfish, non-supportive, or condescending to each other.
The family should always stick together. Your family should lift you when you are feeling down. Family is supposed to provide support mentally. When you are in trouble: family should come together and help you get through the rough time.
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Occasionally, we need a family fight!!!!!

Families are dysfunctional, crazy, supportive, loving and caring.

Never Forget too many lives were lost that day..

Here is something I wrote right after 9/11/2001 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Here is something I wrote right after 9/11 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Unfortunately, here it is 18 years later there has been numerous incidence with loss of life at the hands of evil people. May God have mercy for this planet.

By: Painbug©2019