Helpless…

Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
©Painbug 2020

Patience is a Virtual!!!!

Being patient sounds like an easy thing to do right?

I yearn to travel again. I want to eat out in restaurants.

I want to gather with people other than the ones in my household. I want to enjoy my many adventures. I want to be able to see the world again.

For now, I must stay put in my bubble.

The last ten months have been extremely hard for me. I feel as if I am on an extended punishment. I have seen other people traveling and enjoying life. I see the pictures on social media, and it just saddens me. I start to think it is time and safe to travel again. I begin to start the process of picking somewhere to go until I heard a voice in my head.

It told me to be patient a little while longer. When the time is right, you will know. You know what the risks are. Are you willing to jeopardize yourself and others for enjoyment?

Being patient is a difficult task to accomplish. It tends to impact your thinking when you see things appear differently than they are.

Lately, this word patience has been flowing around a lot. These last month’s People were asked to have patience during the election count. People were asked to have the patience for a vaccine. People were asked to have patience while the scientist tries to figure out what this virus is. Most importantly, people were asked to have patience while they figure out how to navigate the school system.

2020 has brought out all the tricks. We all must learn how to adjust to the current situation at hand. I am the first one to admit my world has been turned upside down because of this virus mentally and physically. It took me a while to realize the severity of this virus. When you start losing people around you, it hits home. We had a few COVID-19 scares. I realized I need to look out for myself and others. The last thing I want on my conscience is I got someone sick, and they died.

Patience is the ability to wait calmly for a situation to change. Whether we are looking forward to the end of an unpleasant condition or the fulfillment of a long-awaited desire, we need patience.

©Painbug 2020

What the heck?? Part 2 from Another bad day….

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!! Posted November 5

Part 2….

So this doctor diagnosed me wrong, told me the blood work isn’t right and then messed up my medical chart.

I now have Chronic Kidney Disease III according to this doctor. The problem is the Nephrologist who is treating me wasn’t aware of that I had CKD. He had to review all my labs and medical records to see how he missed this important information.

The outcome is I don’t have CKD. One less thing to worry about.

Another bad day😣😣😣😢😢

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!!

You are my……

I depend on you

You are my rock.

You are my guiding light when my world is dark.

You are my warmth when it is cold.

You are the voice I hear when I am making decisions.

When I am lost, you are the one who finds me.

When I am scare, you are the one who comforts me.

         Isiah 41:10

You are my heavenly father who gave his only beloved precious son, to give a sinner like me a chance at life, peace, and happiness in your kingdom.

       Matthew 6:10

©Painbug 2020

This is for all men and women!!!👀👀👁👁

When you start to see gray hair, please don’t rush to color your gray. We shouldn’t be ashamed of gray but embrace, love and, treasure your gray hair. 

Proverbs 16.31

Regardless of all the negativity in the world today, enjoy the simple things of life.

Before you were able to travel the world, you enjoyed time with your family locally. 

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Before you were able to go out to eat at these lovely restaurants, you would spend time cooking at home with your family.

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Before Technology became popular, you spent time writing letters and made phone calls.

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Before game systems hit the mainstream, you played board games with the family.

Let’s get back to the basics and enjoy the simple things of life.

The world has gone mad. You can remain calm and peaceful if you let God into your life.

Galatians 5:22, Roman 14:17

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©Painbug 2020

Strength‼‼‼‼‼©

Strength comes from someone invisible.

Strength comes from other people.

Strength comes from deep within yourself.

This incredible strength comes from God.

Strength is when you are at peace with Jehovah, yourself, and others.

Strength comes from acknowledging and accepting the wrong you have done to yourself and others.

Strength comes from forgiving and loving the people who have done you wrong.

Strength comes from loving people who hate you.

Strength is taking someone’s hurtful words and turning them into ashes.

Strength comes from dealing with pain and mental health issues that want to break you, but you don’t allow it.

Strength is fighting head-on with or without assistance.

Strength is knowing regardless of what this world throws at you:

You are loved.

You are kind.

You are smart.

You are beautiful/handsome.

You are wonderful

You are a child of God!!!!

Strength comes from Perseverance.

Always remember your strength comes from God. Anytime you start to feel like you don’t have the strength; All you need to do is just pray and leave it in God’s hands. ©Painbug 2020

Self- Love💕😘💖

Self-love is a feeling only the individual can experience.

Can you Image you have a bag full of coins? This bag consists of dimes, nickels, quarters, pennies, and dollar coins. The bag is full of change. However, you notice there are only a few dollar coins in this bag.  You start feeling a little disappointed. You begin to ask yourself, what can I do to obtain more dollar coins?

After a couple of days pass, you start to appreciate the coins you have collected. It doesn’t matter if you have a few dollar coins or a lot. What matters is any change you have collected thus far is valuable money.

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Self-love is like coins. You have one quality you focus on the most. One day something happens, and you must change your focus and appreciate everything about yourself. You begin to love yourself. Everything from the good, bad, and ugly makeup who you are now.

Self-love is when you can guard your heart against harsh words and feeling from others.

Self-love is being humble while forgiving and loving your enemy.

Self-love is being at peace with God, yourself, and others.

Self-love is demanding respect while providing the highest level of respect for others.

Self-love is your calm in the storm.

Self-love is being able to put your faith in God when others are determined to be bitter toward you.

Without Self-love, you become lost to the world around you.

We all need to learn how to love ourselves before we can truly love someone else.

I thank God for the life lessons we have to endure.

I will always love him first and foremost.

©Painbug 2020

7-year-old Uzbekistan boy cured of heart ailment at Delhi-based hospital
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Times are changing‼‼🕕

Every day has new issues.
What you did the day before won’t matter the next day.
The world is changing day by day.
People you know are here today and gone tomorrow.
We need to live every day as if it’s our last.
©Painbug 2020