Here is something I wrote right after 9/11 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Unfortunately, here it is 18 years later there has been numerous incidence with loss of life at the hands of evil people. May God have mercy for this planet.

By: Painbug©2019

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Seeking advice asap!!!!

Here is my disclaimer normally I do not share my personal stuff on social media times, but is hard and need to make sure I am not going crazy.

I need some advice quickly about my situation. So as we know I have been suffering from chronic pain and mental health issues. I have a son who is really really pushing his luck. He is 17 years old very disrespectful and self-center. I think he is a sociopath, but that is my opinion. I am not a professional who can diagnose but he has the signs. He constantly taunts us, tried to fight his dad twice, comes home when he gets ready, he feels we should allow him to bring company home when he feels like, and oh here is the kicker he feels we should be his personal taxi cab. all of this behavior started escalating over the last two years. He hasn’t had any trauma issues happen to him. He has been dealing with a girl who is one year older than her.

She is problematic as well. In and out of juvenile. She has a rap sheet full of assaults on her mother. Yes, I said she it beats her mom up. Very disrespectful, self-center and manipulative seen it first hand. I saw her talk to her mother like trash. She has tried her luck me with a nasty text message late one night. I had to let her know quickly I am not the one and she is over 18 years old. I think we nip that in the bud no issues from her anymore.

Now that I gave you a little background. Here are the things we tried already.

  1. I had sought therapy for him. He told the therapist it was a waste of his and her time.
  2. We ended up with a DCF case (Department of children and families) they came out dropped the case. He was placed in a youth emergency shelter for trying to fight his father.
  3. We were referred to Boystown that offers non- residential services to no avail.
  4. Sent him to a boys youth ranch he stay there for a while, but started trouble there and being disrespectful and defiance to the adults on grounds.
  5. Police at the house a couple of times a week to de-escalate situations.
  6. Restrictions in the house phone, tv, etc.. Was told we were possessive

All these things have not worked for us at all. The laws are set up to protect children which are good for children, how about the parent’s rights. We are being emotional abuse, I guess physically abuse when he tries to fight his dad and verbally abuse. If the shoe was on the other foot we would be under the jail. Please don’t think for one second we are scared or intimidated by this child. He is the fifth out of six children. The youngest boy of four sons. We had the normal teenager trouble with the others nothing this dramatic. None of the other kids dare to step out of line the way this child does. The sad thing is we saw him and this girl disrespect a grow ass man in our house. It’s too much I think God was in the room to stop all of us from snatching both their ass. We knew then he had issues that were just going to manifest to something worst.

As parents, we tend to question where did we go wrong? How can this child turn out like this we raised him, right? When did his mind snap? What causes this to behavior? Finally Why?

It has been hard for me and my husband trying to hold our composure during these times. As I write this my child decided he wasn’t coming home for two night. So now we have to deal with another concerned adult who is taking care of his girlfriend. They were wondering if my son was going to show up at their house. The question is she going to try to sneak him in and if so when caught will they cause a problem since they believe they are the 2019 version of Blonde and Clyde. Just went to his school for a meeting he requested we have with the guidance counselor. To our surprise
(not really), he wasn’t at school.

I need some much-needed advice, please.

HELP HELP The struggle is real!!!

Life…….

This thing call life what is it?

We have up and downs all the time. I have been through so much in this last two weeks I wondered how did I survive it.  No matter what age you are life will test you. I went from losing a relationship with my son to losing a sister in law and wanting to kill my husband all on the same night. I felt so weak and in so much pain mentally and physically that I couldn’t think straight at all.  It was like my world was crashing and there was nothing I could do but sit and watch. My drama last over the weekend and stuff got real on that Monday. I still didn’t have time to think because I had to be a wife and a sister in law. The stuff with my son was put on hold and the beef with husband was put on ice. I was so grateful for my neighbor she stepped up to volunteer and keep my daughter while we had to leave the state. She wanted to make sure my daughter wouldn’t miss school. I didn’t think about my daughter missing school.

While dealing with my brother in law the drama started the moment we stepped into his house. I have never come across so many fake money hungry property thieving people.  I drove nine hours straight to arrive 12:30 am at a house we always stayed. We were told by people we never met that we would have to stay at a hotel. Are you kidding me we are out in the country land where the nearest hotel is a roach motel 30 minutes drive away.  By the time we check into the hotel and lay our heads down, it was almost 2 am. The service was the next day at 10:00 am.

How can you??? Things to think about.

What do you when you have lived most of your life with limited family contact?

When you’re in need of family support and no one is there how do you handle that?

How do you feel when you are in a comfortable position without the help of family?

What do you when you are unable to fight for yourself and family finally decides to show up and now they know what is best for you?

How can they speak for you and they barely know you?

How can you send someone to live in a lonely place by themselves for the rest of their days?

How can you live with yourself knowing you never knew that family member at all?

Please get to know your family members before making a final decision for them.

By Pain Bug