Living with pain, Life Journey, Personal development
Author: Pain Bug
I am 30+ year old married with 6 children. They are all grown except one and she reminds us every day she is the baby. We love to travel. I am a spontaneous spur of the moment person.
I created this blog as an outlet to express my emotions. We all need an outlet to help us cope with chronic pain and mental health.
You came like a thief in the night. In a blink of an eye, you stole all my possessions, my fight, my strength, and my control. You left me with sorrow, stress, pain, low self-esteem, and self-pity. When the clouds dissipated the next day, I heard a voice it said to me: smile, shout, and rejoice for what has been stolen will be replaced ten times over. You are never alone if you walk with me.
Shake off that old skin and show them how relentless you are. Show them through your actions; your spirit will not be broken, no matter how hard they try.
2020 stop me in my tracks. The things I am used to are no longer available. Like all the other businesses, my business journey was cut short. It was a two-year-long process that ended In a few short days. It was a sad moment, but then the sun came out. I had to pivot my thoughts. The main thing about an entrepreneur’s mind is always thinking. When one door closes, we start working on two more doors.
In 2019, I leaped into something new to me, so I thought. In 2020 I was able to focus more time on this project. By late 2020, I completed the PMP and CAPM courses. I am gearing up to take the PMI’s certification exams for both professions. In 2020, I learned how to sew. Not only did I want to learn how to sew, but I wanted to master sewing. My first project was learning how to sew face masks. Well, my face mask comes with build-in filters, nose wire, and four layers of cloth. The face mask can adjust to different face sizes. Then started making king-size silk pillows case.
The year 2021, has arrived and I have another challenge to face. The surgery left me with one good working arm. My right arm is incapacitated; for at least six weeks. How in the world would I survive this? As usual, my mind is always thinking. I decided to try this idea and make homemade flower vases. However, these vases are not just any flowers. These vases are full of unique colors, arrange paper flowers.
Even though I have limitations my minds still try to work.
The year is just getting started lets see what I will try next.
It’s a new year with the same old problems from 2020. People couldn’t wait for the year 2021 to come around. What changes have we seen thus far? Covid-19 has improved her game and started producing different variants of the virus. The deaths are over 500,000 in the United States alone. We still have high positive cases and deaths. We have more political drama going on in this country. It is still unreliable and confusing misinformation share by our government officials. In the first week of January 2021, the country experienced an event we have never seen before. People are starting to rebel against the government and its preventive measurements. They feel you are intruding on their rights. Instead of wearing one mask, they ask us to wear two for better protection. There are vaccines available, but the demand is higher than the supply available. They have begun to lower the age requirements for the vaccines. Now we are on the verge of another COVID-19 wave across the country. Will we ever get over this virus?
Our God is a loving heavenly father who allows us free will to learn about him and his beloved son. John 17:3
There are numerous religions available to the world. Some mention our heavenly father God others focus on other Gods and things. Matthew 7:13-15
Depending on where at in the world you live, you might have the option of choosing which religion you want to study.
Through the years, I have study different Faiths. I felt inadequate always, searching for something. In the last couple of years, I found what I was missing. Matthew 5:4-6
I finally found my home. My heart rejoices, my mind is always wanting more, my body feels at peace. When I am dealing with this world system of things, I tend to submerge myself in my faith to cope.1 Peters 5: 6-11.
I can’t shake this pain inside of me. It follows me all the time. This pain has consumed my happiness, my joy, and my life. This pain forced me into an unwilling, one-sided marriage. Now I am in a space where it’s just pain and I. My entire world has been fill with pain.