Helpless…

Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
©Painbug 2020

Patience is a Virtual!!!!

Being patient sounds like an easy thing to do right?

I yearn to travel again. I want to eat out in restaurants.

I want to gather with people other than the ones in my household. I want to enjoy my many adventures. I want to be able to see the world again.

For now, I must stay put in my bubble.

The last ten months have been extremely hard for me. I feel as if I am on an extended punishment. I have seen other people traveling and enjoying life. I see the pictures on social media, and it just saddens me. I start to think it is time and safe to travel again. I begin to start the process of picking somewhere to go until I heard a voice in my head.

It told me to be patient a little while longer. When the time is right, you will know. You know what the risks are. Are you willing to jeopardize yourself and others for enjoyment?

Being patient is a difficult task to accomplish. It tends to impact your thinking when you see things appear differently than they are.

Lately, this word patience has been flowing around a lot. These last month’s People were asked to have patience during the election count. People were asked to have the patience for a vaccine. People were asked to have patience while the scientist tries to figure out what this virus is. Most importantly, people were asked to have patience while they figure out how to navigate the school system.

2020 has brought out all the tricks. We all must learn how to adjust to the current situation at hand. I am the first one to admit my world has been turned upside down because of this virus mentally and physically. It took me a while to realize the severity of this virus. When you start losing people around you, it hits home. We had a few COVID-19 scares. I realized I need to look out for myself and others. The last thing I want on my conscience is I got someone sick, and they died.

Patience is the ability to wait calmly for a situation to change. Whether we are looking forward to the end of an unpleasant condition or the fulfillment of a long-awaited desire, we need patience.

©Painbug 2020

What the heck?? Part 2 from Another bad day….

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!! Posted November 5

Part 2….

So this doctor diagnosed me wrong, told me the blood work isn’t right and then messed up my medical chart.

I now have Chronic Kidney Disease III according to this doctor. The problem is the Nephrologist who is treating me wasn’t aware of that I had CKD. He had to review all my labs and medical records to see how he missed this important information.

The outcome is I don’t have CKD. One less thing to worry about.

When one door close another one opens

Before COVID-19, my home care business was finally about to get off the ground. I had worked very hard the last two years trying to get all my certifications in place and started applying for state contracts to hit a wall. COVID-19 hit, and everything came down like dominos pieces. I had to dissolve the business. I wasn’t willing to put people at risk for money. It’s been ten months since this door close on me prematurely.
I am an entrepreneur at heart. My eagerness will not allow me to give up. A window opened and then the door. Now it’s time for me to do what I do best to rise. Being patient is not the easiest thing for me to do, but I am learning to wait.

Do not give up when a door closes. Another one will open up have faith and be patient.

Another bad day😣😣😣😢😢

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!!