Looking for my Courage/Valor πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€

Where do you look for courage? When someone is facing depression, anxiety, and pain looking for courage is the farthest thing from their mind. When in the middle of an episode, it is really hard to think positive or even straight at times. It really doesn’t matter what anyone says at that time, because the only things you are thinking about while they are speaking is you don’t know what I am going through, or how it feels. What can I do to make it stop? Or finally, your thinking how can I make it stop, make it all stop.  Why me? 

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” Just tell yourself the pain is the healing process, you are strong and brave, I am proud of you, your strength is amazing, and If I can take the pain from you i would”

Your mind tends to go downhill from the moment pain begins to speak. Which way do you turn for help? Sometimes you believe a phone conversation or even texting someone can help take your mind off the pain.  Sad to say the texting or talking on the phone doesn’t help me. It reminds me how helpless I am when someone apologizes or say I wish there was something I could do for you. Please save your voice and my ears from empathy. I only hear with one ear and it’s rejecting whatever it hears through the same ear. I can’t even hear my owns thoughts clearly through the pain in my body.

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Here is the famous question on a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling today? I want to ask who and how a scale from 1-10 really can measure my pain level?

How and where do I find this courage everyone keeps talking about? Can I just call its name will it respond to me? Courage can you find me now I need you more than ever?

What is Courage? Courage is the strength in the face of pain or grief, or the ability to do something that frightens one.

When I wake up in the morning courage is not waking up beside me. Depending on my body its other feelings I am waking up with. I tend to have conversations with myself throughout the day to gain my courage. It always starts with why are you feeling sorry for yourself? Follow by a series of questions that normally get me mad enough to prove myself wrong. Its like courage sets a fire under my butt to motivate me. Courage has me facing my day with great energy I begin to feel like the lion king of the jungle. I know it a continuing battle every day to find the courage to face life battle, but I am in it for the long runπŸ˜πŸ˜‰πŸ˜Ž.

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Pain Bug

I am 30+ years old married with 6 children. They are all grown except two and my youngest one reminds us every day she is the baby. We love to travel the east coast. We soon hope to travel the west coast of the U.S. I am very spontaneous spur of the moment person.

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