It has been rough, demanding, and painful journey these last couple of months. I’ve been emotionally and physically drained throughout the day. Each morning how I woke up determines the flow of the day. Some days I would accomplish a lot of my goals and other days I am lucky to out of the bed. Too bad my mind and body are not on the same page. It’s a consist battle to be positive and motivated during the day. I have questioned my faith numerous times. I wonder if this is my punishment for something I have done in my past.
Emotion support is hard to maintain by yourself. You need a strong support system to help you survived the day.
This thing call life what is it?
We have up and downs all the time. I have been through so much in this last two weeks I wondered how did I survive it. No matter what age you are life will test you. I went from losing a relationship with my son to losing a sister in law and wanting to kill my husband all on the same night. I felt so weak and in so much pain mentally and physically that I couldn’t think straight at all. It was like my world was crashing and there was nothing I could do but sit and watch. My drama last over the weekend and stuff got real on that Monday. I still didn’t have time to think because I had to be a wife and a sister in law. The stuff with my son was put on hold and the beef with husband was put on ice. I was so grateful for my neighbor she stepped up to volunteer and keep my daughter while we had to leave the state. She wanted to make sure my daughter wouldn’t miss school. I didn’t think about my daughter missing school.
While dealing with my brother in law the drama started the moment we stepped into his house. I have never come across so many fake money hungry property thieving people. I drove nine hours straight to arrive 12:30 am at a house we always stayed. We were told by people we never met that we would have to stay at a hotel. Are you kidding me we are out in the country land where the nearest hotel is a roach motel 30 minutes drive away. By the time we check into the hotel and lay our heads down, it was almost 2 am. The service was the next day at 10:00 am.