My Depression and Anxiety is Real

I have dealt with depression my whole life, but now it has become worst. I went through post partum depression with both of my children. After every child it seemed to get worse. My depression turns into insecurities and meltdowns. It also turned into anxiety when approached too fast. I have had intrusive thoughts about my children and my husband. I used to question why was I even still alive because my life was so bad. I didn’t know how to manage anything in my life and it bothered me. I realized I wasn’t even in control of my mind. It took over and I couldn’t even go throughout my day to day without feeling like I had to lay in bed and sleep all day to make the mental pain go away. God is what helped me manage on top of putting great people in my circle. I attend counseling and I am starting to feel less anxiety as time goes on. I am trying to start a business and that makes the anxiety swell up at times, but I intend to make it my reality. God has provided for me mentally, spiritually, physically, financially, and he has changed me from the inside out. I am forever grateful. This is not an overnight healing. It takes time and I am still healing.

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