My marriage to pain

What is going on in this world today? Are we living in the last days?❔❓❔❓❔🕕🕕

We experience a magnitude of devastation events around the world recently. Every time you turn on the television there always something going on like wildfires, hurricanes, tornadoes, tsunami, earthquakes, mass shootings, police shootings, and a worldwide pandemic.

Some people are starting to question whether we are living in the last days?

We all endure the pain and suffering. You begin to weep, your chest feels like it’s burning, and your heart feels so heavy. We start to become speechless. It’s hard to be transparent when the issues are transcending our understanding. The more you try to comprehend, the more elusive these situations are.

Will we ever see a world without violence, pain, sickness, destruction, and death? Some people yearned to see the day when we can smile in a peaceful world

(Revelation 22:1-3).

Regardless of your religious belief, we all deep down look forward to the day when Jesus will come and end this world’s system of things

(Revelation 11:15).

We need to start loving one another intensity from the heart

(1 Peter 1:22, John 13:34,35). Now more than ever, we need to learn how to be a peacemaker, even if the other person has done us wrong

(Matthew 5:23,24).

We need to learn how not to hate and continuously forgive our brothers

(1 John 4:20, Colossians 3:12-14, Ephesians 4:32, 5:2).

When the world becomes too boisterous, you can always turn to Jehovah our God for peace and tranquility.

©Pain Bug 2020

2019….

Emotional feeling of “Self-Pity”

Self-pity is a mental struggle. It can be overwhelming to deal with. It’s a feeling you can’t control when it strikes. The flood gates of feelings rush in like an ocean of water during a hurricane. The aim is to destroy everything in its path.
It took a few years for me to realize I was exercising my right to indulge in the self-pity world. One day I realize what was going on in the middle of an episode. Then, I started to ask why I’m punishing myself like this? It was time for a meeting with myself. This conversion was really deep. I started wondering if there was something mentally wrong with me?
Started wondering about the physical and mental pain I was dealing with. I am not the person I use to be before this injury. My life has been dismantled before my eyes. I suffer pain and anxiety attacks daily. Now I suffer from other health issues.
On the other hand, as I started to analyze my situation. Yes, we are broken physically and mentally. Yes, the caliber of my life has changed. Yes, we are miserable at times. Yes, this pain and other health problems are a real pain in the rear to deal with. I asked myself, do I allow this to define who I am or do I want to live life the best way I can?
Whenever self-pity tries to show its ugly head; I quickly shut it down.

Hello world

My Mood….

Had to Fired someone today. That’s tough! Its suck to sucks….

Ushers

2020 Part 3…..

It is interesting how this world changed in the blink of an eye. 2019 would be the last year things in the world were normal. People didn’t care about issues like racial disparities, police shooting, unexplained deaths, food shortages, and other serious concerns.
Now it is a new year the same issues except there is a twist. People were in virtual home prisons. Some states put in place restrictions that limited people from buying needed essentials for daily living. There were certain days when you were allowed to shop. It is hard to find some items such as Lysol spray, cleaning wipes, gloves, hand sanitizer, tissue,paper towels and disposable face masks. There were shortages of beef, chicken, pork, rice, and flour.
Technology usage became the source of schooling, work duties, and a communication platform. Who knew Zoom would rise for a communication platform for business, and churches.
Every day is a reminder of all the deaths that occurred due to a relentless virus. Some people are more paranoid about being around people and socializing in person because it can pose a risk to our health. Simple things such as traveling, partying, shopping, and even getting your hair is a high risk for contracting the virus.
Mental health disorders are on the extreme all-time high. Isolation has become the new normal. Face masks, gloves, and hand sanitizer are part of our daily wardrobe.
Now we are faced with making tough decisions regarding our children’s education. As a parent, we have to decide if we want to take the risk of sending your child back to school or keep them home. In my state, the numbers are steadily climbing, and the school district can’t provide a plan on how to keep our children safe while at school. Our Governor said “children do not transmit the virus-like adults”. They said it is safe to send children back to school regardless of the risk it poses.
How can we feel comfortable with sending children to school, when there is a controversial discussion going about wearing a mask to protect others. The simple task of wearing a face mask to protect yourself and others seems to be a violation of a person’s right.

COVID-19 has changed the world forever.

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2020 is the year the world turned upside down and steadily spiraling downhill.

It’s been a while….

Hey guys and gals. It’s been a while since my last post. I have been busy, mentally, and physically. I had to stay in the house for a couple of months. I started watching videos on how to learn how to sew. I started a few projects, such as making my hair scarfs and face masks. I have made a few masks by hand. I am excited to learn how to use all the different filters for masks. I did start limited travel through the state for work, but it has run its course.

Took a COVID-19 Antibody test those results; were negative. Now I have to take a COVID-19 test this week to make sure I am still in the clear. I live in one of the Epic centers state. The govern refuse to mandatory the face mask rule. A lot of the local counties took action and in force a face mask mandate law. People have figure out a way around the law. They purchase the fake medical clearance for not wearing a mask. I am sorry if you aren’t able to wear a face mask, please wear a face shield to protect others around you. I started utilizing the early morning shopping hours for seniors, people with disabilities, and immunocompromised. Unfortunately for me, I fall in the last two categorize.

We have too many people walking around with COVID-19 spreading the virus. I never thought I would see the day someone who tested positive for COVID-19 say the virus is fake because they are asymptomatic.

New face mask project

I’ve been busy this month with work, school work, and mask making. I wanted to learn how to make face masks. I spent hours watching YouTube videos on how to sew. I decide to buy a sewing machine to make it easy on myself. Well, that last for only two completed masks. I went ahead and starting sewing mask by hand with the exception poking myself numerous I have gotten better at sewing.