What is going on in this world today? Are we living in the last days?❔❓❔❓❔🕕🕕

We experience a magnitude of devastation events around the world recently. Every time you turn on the television there always something going on like wildfires, hurricanes, tornadoes, tsunami, earthquakes, mass shootings, police shootings, and a worldwide pandemic.

Some people are starting to question whether we are living in the last days? 

We all endure the pain and suffering. You begin to weep, your chest feels like it’s burning, and your heart feels so heavy. We start to become speechless. It’s hard to be transparent when the issues are transcending our understanding. The more you try to comprehend, the more elusive these situations are. 

Will we ever see a world without violence, pain, sickness, destruction, and death? Some people yearned to see the day when we can smile in a peaceful world

(Revelation 22:1-3).

 

Regardless of your religious belief, we all deep down look forward to the day when Jesus will come and end this world’s system of things

 (Revelation 11:15).

We need to start loving one another intensity from the heart 

(1 Peter 1:22, John 13:34,35). Now more than ever, we need to learn how to be a peacemaker, even if the other person has done us wrong

(Matthew 5:23,24).

We need to learn how not to hate and continuously forgive our brothers

(1 John 4:20, Colossians 3:12-14, Ephesians 4:32, 5:2).

When the world becomes too boisterous, you can always turn to Jehovah our God for peace and tranquility.

©Pain Bug 2020

Emotional feeling of “Self-Pity”

Self-pity is a mental struggle. It can be overwhelming to deal with. It’s a feeling you can’t control when it strikes. The flood gates of feelings rush in like an ocean of water during a hurricane. The aim is to destroy everything in its path.
It took a few years for me to realize I was exercising my right to indulge in the self-pity world. One day I realize what was going on in the middle of an episode. Then, I started to ask why I’m punishing myself like this? It was time for a meeting with myself. This conversion was really deep. I started wondering if there was something mentally wrong with me?
Started wondering about the physical and mental pain I was dealing with. I am not the person I use to be before this injury. My life has been dismantled before my eyes. I suffer pain and anxiety attacks daily. Now I suffer from other health issues.
On the other hand, as I started to analyze my situation. Yes, we are broken physically and mentally. Yes, the caliber of my life has changed. Yes, we are miserable at times. Yes, this pain and other health problems are a real pain in the rear to deal with. I asked myself, do I allow this to define who I am or do I want to live life the best way I can?
Whenever self-pity tries to show its ugly head; I quickly shut it down.

Don’t let it take over your world

Helpless…

Sleepiness nights lead to painful days and nights.
During the day, you wonder if there is a light at the end of this tunnel?
During the night, you beg for the pain to go away and come back another time.
During the night, your mind races sporadically.
Your thoughts begin to cloud your judgment badly.
Your body wages war against you, but you’re fighting a losing battle.
During the day, your mind fades. Your body tries to recoup while still suffering through the pain.
Your days become your nights and your nights become your days.
The revolving door doesn’t stop
The Saga Continues
©Painbug 2020

Patience is a Virtual!!!!

Being patient sounds like an easy thing to do right?

I yearn to travel again. I want to eat out in restaurants.

I want to gather with people other than the ones in my household. I want to enjoy my many adventures. I want to be able to see the world again.

For now, I must stay put in my bubble.

The last ten months have been extremely hard for me. I feel as if I am on an extended punishment. I have seen other people traveling and enjoying life. I see the pictures on social media, and it just saddens me. I start to think it is time and safe to travel again. I begin to start the process of picking somewhere to go until I heard a voice in my head.

It told me to be patient a little while longer. When the time is right, you will know. You know what the risks are. Are you willing to jeopardize yourself and others for enjoyment?

Being patient is a difficult task to accomplish. It tends to impact your thinking when you see things appear differently than they are.

Lately, this word patience has been flowing around a lot. These last month’s People were asked to have patience during the election count. People were asked to have the patience for a vaccine. People were asked to have patience while the scientist tries to figure out what this virus is. Most importantly, people were asked to have patience while they figure out how to navigate the school system.

2020 has brought out all the tricks. We all must learn how to adjust to the current situation at hand. I am the first one to admit my world has been turned upside down because of this virus mentally and physically. It took me a while to realize the severity of this virus. When you start losing people around you, it hits home. We had a few COVID-19 scares. I realized I need to look out for myself and others. The last thing I want on my conscience is I got someone sick, and they died.

Patience is the ability to wait calmly for a situation to change. Whether we are looking forward to the end of an unpleasant condition or the fulfillment of a long-awaited desire, we need patience.

©Painbug 2020

What the heck?? Part 2 from Another bad day….

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!! Posted November 5

Part 2….

So this doctor diagnosed me wrong, told me the blood work isn’t right and then messed up my medical chart.

I now have Chronic Kidney Disease III according to this doctor. The problem is the Nephrologist who is treating me wasn’t aware of that I had CKD. He had to review all my labs and medical records to see how he missed this important information.

The outcome is I don’t have CKD. One less thing to worry about.

When one door close another one opens

Before COVID-19, my home care business was finally about to get off the ground. I had worked very hard the last two years trying to get all my certifications in place and started applying for state contracts to hit a wall. COVID-19 hit, and everything came down like dominos pieces. I had to dissolve the business. I wasn’t willing to put people at risk for money. It’s been ten months since this door close on me prematurely.
I am an entrepreneur at heart. My eagerness will not allow me to give up. A window opened and then the door. Now it’s time for me to do what I do best to rise. Being patient is not the easiest thing for me to do, but I am learning to wait.

Do not give up when a door closes. Another one will open up have faith and be patient.

Another bad day😣😣😣😢😢

A medical doctor told me stress, anxiety, and depression causes inflammation in my body!!!! What the hell so the reason why I swell up is because my mental health is out of whack?

Go kid Rocks dude!!!!