This is my first publicized story. I hope this will help other people who are dealing with the same issues. Maybe we can open up a dialogue. Bare with me my writing can be a little discombobulated. I do suffer from dyslexia. Please don’t let that turn you away….
Each day we write a new page in the life that is ours to do what we want with. The beauty in humanity is that the mix of stories that cascade down through time to create a pool of knowledge, helps us understand what is possible for us to create in our own lives. Hearing the stories of others can either propel us forward in similar direction or dissuade us from such a direction and take another route.
The power of a story from another is hard to ignore completely. From listening to someone’s culinary experience to what drove them to take on a challenge of a lifetime, our opinions will lead us to follow or do our own thing. What is important is that if we are to learn from a teacher, we need to ensure that the subject is worth learning about in the first place. If the…
It feels good to know there are other people who may be facing the same feelings as I do. I would love to share my experiences and feeling too with other people. Sometimes it can be really hard when you are stuck in bed and a prisoner of your own mind. You tend to wonder are there other people who are facing the same mental and physical feelings? Are you the only one who seems to think this situation is a punishment for some strange reason? There are multiple questions I would ask myself on a daily basis while I am trying to get my head together.
We all need an outlet in troubled times. Someone suggested I start a blog to share my experiences with other people. I am the type of person who would keep everything to myself so I wouldn’t burden other people with my drama. When people see me they comment on how strong I must be to endure so much. I want to yell out so bad the person you are talking to is not strong. In reality, I am a weak person who has conversations with herself every day just to get motived. I am always fighting just to function normally. There are days when my body wins the fight and all I see is the bed.
It is tough to fight with pain, hiding feelings, and loneliness. No one really knows how it feels unless they are experiencing the same thing. I do have a small close support system, but I want to bring them into your madness so I fake it to make it. Now I know there are other people who face the same thing as I and are struggling to fight as well.
This is the second category 4 hurricane I’ve been through since living in the sunshine state. Each storm have its own uniqueness to it. We have experienced city wide outages for a couple of days now some areas are still facing it. I can tell you first hand this hurricane has brought out the worst in people. It also brings out the courage and strength in people as well. We was fortunate to help out our neighbors and vice versa.
Pain was still in the background sometimes it would incapacitate me other times it drove me to fight harder. This ride is almost over now for some people and other people it continues to run.
Well, here we go again it’s seriously scary to think about the possibilities considering what happened last time. I tell what this isn’t good for people with anxiety. My nerves are haywires right now. My body is starting to hurt everywhere. Will give an update in a few hours until then pray for us.
I am still learning about myself. I am a 40 “plus shipping and handling” something-year-old married with children. I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia over 10+ years ago. In the last two years, I was also diagnosed with spinal cord injury, chronic pain, and severe nerve damage and some mental issues as well. Pain is not a stranger to me, but the complications are a huge part of my life now. My life has always been with problems from childhood to adulthood. I have conquered many obstacles people should never have to go through.
Recently I’ve been trying different outlets to help cope with my issues at hand. Writing is a new outlet for me so here I am to step out on faith and share my thoughts and experiences with the world. I have learned there are so many people in the world who share the same issues as myself. I hope this can help someone else who may be feeling like there is no way out of this crazy tunnel.
Life has been a roller coaster for the last two and a half years of my life. There is a saying be careful what you ask for you just may get it. I use to wonder what people meant by they had to reconstruct their life after getting sick. I have experienced first hand what its like to have your life changed in a blink of mine eye. Since March of 2016 my life has changed so dramatically I haven’t been able to keep up with it myself. I used to think the light was going to be shining and the end of this dark tunnel was approaching. To my surprise life had another alternative plan for me. I am trying to adjust to the change and accept the new issues that have arisen.
As I look back on my life thus far, it has been a journey for me. Felt I was accomplishing my goals but, now I see this wasn’t the intended plan for me. Of course, I don’t regret anything I have done thus far it is a learning curve for me. Through the years I was able to obtain three college degrees and was able to start working in my desired career paths. We raised four children, made sure they finished school and chosen the path they wanted to pursue. I am very proud of what we had accomplished thus far. We still have two children left to raise. One will be 18 next year and our baby girl have seven more years before she is ready to be a young lady.
During the last two years, I’ve learned my education and experiences has no bearing right now in my life. I had to come up with a new plan of action which would’ve never cross my mind. Every day is faced with new obstacles, challenges, and defeat, but through it, all I can do is fight to the best of my ability. Now I understand you have to create your own light. Faith and hope are the two things I really can rely on to see me through this journey. My light is shining around me in this tunnel I just had to open my mind and eyes to see it.