Emotional feeling of “Self-Pity”

Self-pity is a mental struggle. It can be overwhelming to deal with. It’s a feeling you can’t control when it strikes. The flood gates of feelings rush in like an ocean of water during a hurricane. The aim is to destroy everything in its path.
It took a few years for me to realize I was exercising my right to indulge in the self-pity world. One day I realize what was going on in the middle of an episode. Then, I started to ask why I’m punishing myself like this? It was time for a meeting with myself. This conversion was really deep. I started wondering if there was something mentally wrong with me?
Started wondering about the physical and mental pain I was dealing with. I am not the person I use to be before this injury. My life has been dismantled before my eyes. I suffer pain and anxiety attacks daily. Now I suffer from other health issues.
On the other hand, as I started to analyze my situation. Yes, we are broken physically and mentally. Yes, the caliber of my life has changed. Yes, we are miserable at times. Yes, this pain and other health problems are a real pain in the rear to deal with. I asked myself, do I allow this to define who I am or do I want to live life the best way I can?
Whenever self-pity tries to show its ugly head; I quickly shut it down.

Don’t it take over your world

Semper Fi

The few, The proud, The Marines

Oorah

Never Forget too many lives were lost that day..

Here is something I wrote right after 9/11/2001 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

“The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Past

Never forget where you came from. Embrace your past. In other words, own that shit it’s yours.

Our past is the foundation of who we are today. Never be ashamed of who you were. If it wasn’t for your past you wouldn’t have the opportunity to change your present and future.

We all been through the good and bad times, the ups and down times, and the what the hell times. We can honestly say we all made it through.

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The different stages of Life
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Thank you Past. Hello Future

Pain Bug©2019

Warning a storm is on the way

There is a terrible storm coming, one which no one will be able to handle. This storm will have everyone questioning, panicking, and racing for cover. This storm is one of a kind there has never been anything like this one before. You can run, hide, fight, and plead, but this storm will win. Now is the time Now is the time to get right, make peace, and value the precious time we have left before this storm comes. Now is the time to detox from these worldly possessions, feelings, and controls. This terrible storm will wipe out everything. This storm will hit like a hurricane in different stages. In the calm of the eye, we will let our guard down believing the storm it is over. Within a blink of the eye, all hell will break loose upon this world. This terrible storm will be the end of us.

It’s none of my business what you think of me🤔🤔🤔🤫🤫

We are naturally consumed with what people think about us. We tend to lose ourselves in this tend. For some reason, it is highly important to have favorable views from other people. We have made it possible for other people views to dictate which path our life will go.

We are all born with unique special purposes and gifts. A lot of the stress we are facing is worrying about other people’s thoughts. What did they think? How do they feel about us? Do they approve of our decisions?

It’s sad to say for years I would worry about other people’s feeling and well being.

Now I make it my goal not to care what people think about me.

How you feel is your problem not mines.

What you think is not my concern.

Why should I worry myself about how you feel about me? When clearly it is none of my business👀👀👀👀💨💨💨💨