What is going on in this world today? Are we living in the last days?β”β“β”β“β”πŸ••πŸ••

We experience a magnitude of devastation events around the world recently. Every time you turn on the television there always something going on like wildfires, hurricanes, tornadoes, tsunami, earthquakes, mass shootings, police shootings, and a worldwide pandemic.

Some people are starting to question whether we are living in the last days? 

We all endure the pain and suffering. You begin to weep, your chest feels like it’s burning, and your heart feels so heavy. We start to become speechless. It’s hard to be transparent when the issues are transcending our understanding. The more you try to comprehend, the more elusive these situations are. 

Will we ever see a world without violence, pain, sickness, destruction, and death? Some people yearned to see the day when we can smile in a peaceful world

(Revelation 22:1-3).

 

Regardless of your religious belief, we all deep down look forward to the day when Jesus will come and end this world’s system of things

 (Revelation 11:15).

We need to start loving one another intensity from the heart 

(1 Peter 1:22, John 13:34,35). Now more than ever, we need to learn how to be a peacemaker, even if the other person has done us wrong

(Matthew 5:23,24).

We need to learn how not to hate and continuously forgive our brothers

(1 John 4:20, Colossians 3:12-14, Ephesians 4:32, 5:2).

When the world becomes too boisterous, you can always turn to Jehovah our God for peace and tranquility.

Β©Pain Bug 2020

Emotional feeling of “Self-Pity”

Self-pity is a mental struggle. It can be overwhelming to deal with. It’s a feeling you can’t control when it strikes. The flood gates of feelings rush in like an ocean of water during a hurricane. The aim is to destroy everything in its path.
It took a few years for me to realize I was exercising my right to indulge in the self-pity world. One day I realize what was going on in the middle of an episode. Then, I started to ask why I’m punishing myself like this? It was time for a meeting with myself. This conversion was really deep. I started wondering if there was something mentally wrong with me?
Started wondering about the physical and mental pain I was dealing with. I am not the person I use to be before this injury. My life has been dismantled before my eyes. I suffer pain and anxiety attacks daily. Now I suffer from other health issues.
On the other hand, as I started to analyze my situation. Yes, we are broken physically and mentally. Yes, the caliber of my life has changed. Yes, we are miserable at times. Yes, this pain and other health problems are a real pain in the rear to deal with. I asked myself, do I allow this to define who I am or do I want to live life the best way I can?
Whenever self-pity tries to show its ugly head; I quickly shut it down.

Don’t let it take over your world

Hope

I always had high hopes for my life. Regardless, of what other people thought.

I couldn’t CONFORM to what other people wanted me to do.

God made me unique and special with all my imperfections.

I am a strong, open-minded, opinionated, confident, independent woman.

I am comfortable In my skin.

I do have bad moments, days, and months.

It’s just different shades of me.

I love all of me the good, the bad, and the nasty.

We all have different shades of ourselves, whether we acknowledge it or not.

All I can do is be me.

“Shout out to the old me, and everything you showed me. Glad you didn’t listen when the world was trying to slow me. No one could control me. I had to mess it up before I really got to know me(5 seconds of Summer)”.

Β©Pain Bug 2020

Violence…..

There are so much noise and pain in the world today. The beast call Violence tends to show out at night.

During the night, it causes chaos and destruction while roaming the streets.

It sleeps during the morning and plans during the afternoon.

Violence touches people at different stages while in the mental anger state.

Once it gets a hold of you, it’s hard to snap out of the fog.

Violence is always a half step behind you, just waiting to step in.

You have to guard your mind, eyes, and heart against the evil waiting to swallow you.

Sometimes you need to wear earplugs and shades. 

To stop the noise and sights that are display for your reaction.

Remember, we all were born with common sense.

Think before you speak and act out. Violence is always watching.

Β©Pain Bug 2020

Working from home….πŸ˜•πŸ˜£πŸ€

Working from home can be an unexpected chore. I would start the week off all perky with a clean desk, and high energy.

The beginning of the week

By the end of the week

I am so over the this…. That’s a tomorrow problem.

I’m not alone in this battle.

My office space is a divide between the living room, dog space, and my husband’s office space. My office room is a spare room for the kids when they come home to visit.

June 3, 2020

People are racially divided. Today I was at Costco, and another person went out of her way to talk to me. She saw me walking in the parking lot, and started talking to me. I am a friendly person, so I didn’t mind talking to her. I just happen to look behind me, and a mother and son were walking up. The lady had the nerve to roll her eyes at me and mumble something her son. All I could do was a laugh to myself. I am an individual who thinks for herself. I am a leader, not a follower. I can care less about what other people around me are doing. If you feel some kind of way that’s tough.

I chose to be humble about the situations. The lack of communication from me doesn’t mean I am blind to the issues. I had to endure it since I was born. I want to continue to be the person Jehovah Created to me to be.

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Peaceful View in Puerto Rico

Β©Pain Bug 2020

June 1, 2020

Today, while I was shopping at Costco warehouse. An older woman approached me and said the following “I just wanted you to know that your life matters. God created all of us the same. We all are his children. I thought so should know that” When she finished, I said to her Thank you, and your life matters too. We all are God’s Children.

It took courage for her to stop me and say something like that. I know it came from her heart.

My heart is heavy. There is so much going on in the U.S and around the world. People are rioting, stealing, and destroying property in the name of George Floyd. They are using this man’s death as an excuse to be destructive. I understand protesting; the people need to have their voices heard.

I do not understand the violence. Why are people burning down businesses, looting, or even taunting the police? Why are you destroying and stealing from your community? Where is the logic? We have lost so many lives due to violence.

Racism is a major problem we have dealt with for generations. We can not fight violence with violence. We will never solve anything as long as people are feeding and fueling the violence.

We are still in the middle of a pandemic. Please wear your masks and gloves while protesting. We do not need to add more deaths to the count already.