Emotional feeling of “Self-Pity”

Self-pity is a mental struggle. It can be overwhelming to deal with. It’s a feeling you can’t control when it strikes. The flood gates of feelings rush in like an ocean of water during a hurricane. The aim is to destroy everything in its path.
It took a few years for me to realize I was exercising my right to indulge in the self-pity world. One day I realize what was going on in the middle of an episode. Then, I started to ask why I’m punishing myself like this? It was time for a meeting with myself. This conversion was really deep. I started wondering if there was something mentally wrong with me?
Started wondering about the physical and mental pain I was dealing with. I am not the person I use to be before this injury. My life has been dismantled before my eyes. I suffer pain and anxiety attacks daily. Now I suffer from other health issues.
On the other hand, as I started to analyze my situation. Yes, we are broken physically and mentally. Yes, the caliber of my life has changed. Yes, we are miserable at times. Yes, this pain and other health problems are a real pain in the rear to deal with. I asked myself, do I allow this to define who I am or do I want to live life the best way I can?
Whenever self-pity tries to show its ugly head; I quickly shut it down.

Don’t it take over your world

Had to take a break…..

It has been trying times lately. Some days depression would beat my butt all day long, then anxiety would come in and finish the job. I have been on an emotional roller coaster daily. It seem life was throwing rocks, bricks and grenades at me. Good thing I have professional outlets to utilize in times like this. To be honest I don’t think I would’ve mentally been able to come out of this fight alone without any assistance. It is truly important to have a good emotional support team in your corner at all times. As we all know mental health can affect a person at any given time. It is hard to fight this battle alone.

I’ve learned you have to removed yourself away from of toxic environments, and people. It is fine to be alone from time to time to detox from these issues at hand. You will have time to think clearly and work on yourself. Each time you will discover something new about yourself to work on. Key point is learning how to be honest with yourself and accept your situation for what it is. We all are imperfect humans. We all are a working progress. I had to reply heavily on my faith. Praying always works wonder on our lives.

Never Forget too many lives were lost that day..

Here is something I wrote right after 9/11/2001 one of the saddest day in history

Here it is couple of days later.

We still feel the hurtful pain that leaves a huge hole in everyone heart.

Every voice you hear is asking why?

Why was this evil put upon us?

Why so many people had to die?

Why would a person bring himself to perform an act like this?

Why do we have to feel this pain?

Every face you see wonders how?

How could we as human beings go about our normal life?

How do you explain the sorrowfulness you feel inside?

How could this person feel so shameless?

Who was behind this evil?

Who would want to destroy this place we call home?

Who would want us to feel this was our fault?

Who would want us to feel there is no hope?

Finally the question left in everyone’s mind is What?

What can we do?

What can we do as a country to make this a better place again?

As you can see these are the questions that are being asked.

No one can fully answer these questions yet.

We the people of the United States of America

Know this day will go down in history as the most painful day in America.

The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away

Therefore, the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment., Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous”. Amen

( The book of psalms chapter 1, verse 4 and 5).

God Bless America

Past

Never forget where you came from. Embrace your past. In other words, own that shit it’s yours.

Our past is the foundation of who we are today. Never be ashamed of who you were. If it wasn’t for your past you wouldn’t have the opportunity to change your present and future.

We all been through the good and bad times, the ups and down times, and the what the hell times. We can honestly say we all made it through.

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The different stages of Life
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Thank you Past. Hello Future

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